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2006-09-03T08:26:00.000-07:00

Alot of things happen!

Got some surprises from my donkey frenz...N i realli realli love them... No words can describle them.. I m realli touch! N I LOVE the PRESENT! -->(Picture will be uploaded soon)

Today went out to meet tritney, benson, lim, lim's boyfrenz n jojo.. So onli me n jojo are single.. As usual la, celebrated my bday n tritney together... haha it was an advance bday celebration for both of us.. Cos we cant make it on the actual day. Whenever meet up with benson, he sure will asked me when i going to get one.. N the topic go on, " U still cant 4get him rite!!! "... So i started to ask myself this qn! The ans for that qn was like yes n no!! So wad is the exact ans. I myself oso dont know... i just dont know why lai is like been so many yrs le but occasionally i will still think of him!!! argh!! YYYY???? How can i totally strike him off my mind... Get into another relation???

But i m sure that i realli realli love my single life with all my friends around me n those freedom...

hahaa!! But i think by the age of 19 means another 7 more day, i will gurantee n make this promise that i will nv nv think of him ani more... Cos he is insignficant to me N he dont worth anithing at all...

But is still hard for me to open myself to guys!!! REALLY! just dont know YYYY la...!!! haha =)

TOday i saw Jia Xiong... He is forever so Cool n Cute!!!! (ARE U HAPPI NOW!!!)
hehehe =)

8 more days

2006-09-02T00:22:00.000-07:00

8 more days to go!!!

hahaha... cant wait for that day to cum!!

dont asked me YY..

received mine first bday gift yesterday by john!!!

Thanks i love it...

muck...

thanks to count down...

working life is fun at centrepoint ... =)

love amy, pat !!!!

2006-08-30T23:32:00.000-07:00

FINALLY EXAMS ARE OVER... NO FURTHER COMMENTS ON THEM.. HEHEE...

FREEDOM ARE BACK AGAIN!!!

SCHOOL HOLIDAYS ARE HERE...

WORKING LIFE IS BACK...
WORKING == MONEY....

Need to do some saving... for school fees, expenses n oso to clear some debts...

haha...

Holidays are here is the right time to do some catch up with all my all long time no see friends.. yeah!!

AMEN

2006-08-29T22:25:00.000-07:00

Haha..

Down with two... TWO to go!!! whahaha...
TML wil be a long long long day for me 2.30 to 2100 lol... whahaha.. 2 paper to go...

OPSY ->1430 to 1630 ITO1-05-61/62 seat 74
DSAG->1900 to 2100 Sport hall seat 669

PLs saved me opsy is so hard....n dsag
AMEN...

hahaha..
Thursday will be the day i regain my freedom... HAHA... Thursday night is PARTY NIGHT FOR Me n mine friends

let Me wish Audrey
HAPPY 21 BIRTHDAY...
Sorri for not attending ur bday chalet on last sat...
Hope u like the gift from me!

2006-08-28T19:00:00.000-07:00

Dbsy paper down!!!!
I got nthin much to comment on it... Just hope that i can make it ba!

After paper when to meet sis for dinner at paya lebar... whahaha.. She keep on asked me to go n learn my driving.. n get a license ... Whaha.. I want oso la but didnt have money n time how to learn sia... blah blah

Going to start mugging on ooad again...

Count down two more paper to go.. yeah yeah!!! =)

Any way, before starting to mug let me

Wish
Miss Lthera:
HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY!!!!!!

end of study week!

2006-08-27T19:11:00.000-07:00

Today mark the last day of study week...

Haha... haven finished studying i need more time... time...

Can i say i had finished studying my dbsy! Yes i can say i had finished but i kept forgetting! damn it!! How i wish i had a better brain. Once study, iwil not forget!!!!! argh! argh.

Tml wil be the first paper, DBSY! Let pray for me that it will be easy n whatever i mug will be out in the paper... hehe =)..

Blah blah blah !!!!
DBSY - IT01-05-61/62 seat no: 69.....

2006-08-26T19:07:00.000-07:00

The very last lap to go.... I realli going to crazy soon...

blah blah... I had been struggling for this entire week...

My stomach ache no improvement... fever gone... hahah... I realli realli very exhausted...

Left with ooad... to go... haix haix!!!

Let hope the paper will be easy...

=)

Let cross the finger n pray for me!!! hehe

2006-08-25T06:28:00.000-07:00

Study week is coming to the end... Left 2 more days to main paper..

Have be mugging n mugging...

Dbsy, dsag, ooad n Opsy all are driving me nuts ...

I just realised that mine brain can be a cpu... Can store so mani things man. Whahaha!!! =)

N i m sick... LoL... Having serious stomach ache, slight fever... Whahaha... Cos i have been munching munching n munching On biscuits, cereals, tibits n Had a lot of milo for this week... For lunch n dinner i had been eating yong tao fu... Dont asked me, asked mine mummy...

Anyway, mum will be going to malaysia tml morning n will only be back on monday... SAd Sad man...

blah blah... I will be going to granny hs to mug... haha...

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All mine revision is going to complete expect mine ooad. Ooad is like killing me lol...

hahaha blah blah!!!

Happy birthdae to lao nu ren

2006-08-23T10:52:00.000-07:00

Dont feel like updatin my blog wan lol..

All thanks to lao nu ren hahahah!

Just want to wish lao nu ren happi birthday hope her dreams will come true...
Ya! i will help u find one old man that is single, rich n cute for u kkk..
Anyway take good care of urself... I will miss u wan hahah... Must remember to control ur diet n must take ur medicine regularly kkkk.. mUck...

I simply just love mine aunt aka lao nu ren! hehehe blah blah blah take goood care of urself ba.

2006-08-21T19:07:00.000-07:00

FiRst day of study week....

Went back to school for ooad consultation...

Got back mine milestone 5 n lab test grade...
ok lol fair got good.. is better than what i expected to have... whahaha...

Hmm, i will start to work harder for all my 4 subject... go go go must add more power...

haa... i know is lame...

Now for me study is more important than ani other thing... yeah i will strike for the best!!! =)

got to go back to study again... byebye

hope that i will get to see mine donkey friends this week.. miss them hehe

2006-08-18T23:53:00.000-07:00

I Just wan to say i m sad!!!!!!!!!!!

Ah de li, so called mine best buddies is leaving hp on the 22nd of august....cos of her wrk in one of the big 4 sia.... n Nichalos will be leaving on 31 august...for army n wish him luck man... wad the hell.. all mine best buddies, eat snake buddies all leaving liao.. next time cant played n meet for supper after wrk man... sianx sianx... but i wan to wish them luck in wad ever they do..

HAIX SAD!!!

blah blah blah... end of semester 2.1 ... n i m late for dsag tutorial.. hehe=) so called the last to get into the class n first to get out.. (lifo...) blah blah ...but who cares man...

damn it mummi going oversea again... I hate mine part time maid... She broke mine favourite photo frame.. like that was mine 18th birhtday present from mine dearest frenx from pcss lol... n is a limited verison lol.. feel like killing her... bastard...
lalala

2006-08-17T09:24:00.000-07:00

Today, friday 18 of august 2006 is the last day of school for semester 2.1...... Ya last day...

N this mean that next week will be study week n the following week will be semester exams... hahaa...

haha
wadever la...

TO all mine peers in campus... Study hard for the coming exams kkk. strive hard... Then we will play hard... hope next semester that come we the 4 donkeys will be in the same class... haha... let wrk hard n study hard together... =)

2006-08-16T22:47:00.000-07:00

Ok...

I m rather happi today!!! Haha!!!

I clear mine leave for dbsy tutorial... today... Rita is so good lol.. She even say those whoever miss her morning lessons are welcome to her tutorial at 5 pm... hehe =B but i did not go.. cos i nid to fetch monster back lol... hehe

Anyway, today i got back mine dbsy assignment... Haha! Glad with the grade i got. B+... I realli happi, cos i did mine module by myself lol.. hehe =) Ok lalala.. i should not be to happi abt it... For now the most impt the thing i need to do is to study hard for mine main paper... hehe=)

Ok, i think i need to thanks jasmine la.. hehe... Anyway, jasmine if u happen to read mine blog, just want to tell u, pls study hard ok.. N get out of the poly cos i dont want to see u ani more .. hehe :) joking kkk... lalalaa... hehe

lalala...

I m tired, shit tml i having ooad lab test.. god bless me..

Craps!

2006-08-15T10:26:00.000-07:00

this week is a crap man!!! Is just a waste of time coming to school...

This week i will not have
Dsag lab
opsy lect
opsy tutorial...

Exams are around the corner onli! Next week will be tp study week... haix n exams will be on the following weeks onli... lol... sianx

yesterday was our cmsk meeting... We will damn nervous la... But in the end it came out to be a good one! so not much comment about it. Onli that mine poor leg is so painful la... lalalala... ok la we took 14 min n 31 sec to complete the meeting.

calynne was our chairperson for the meeting n
eliza was our secretary... la
me eve n danny was the member la..
during the meeting, when i look at their facial expression really made me wan to laugh la...
whahaha...

ani way opsy is a crap man is damn nonsense... Remedial tutorial... i dont understand the cylinder movement la.. whahaha =)

2006-08-14T08:36:00.000-07:00

I m just tired of mine life.
I m tired of been like this..

I m not at fault!!!!!

Pls leave me alone!!! I just dont want ur advise for me... Is all so fake... I will never give a bloody damn out of it ani more...

If u choose to trust those donkeys then by all means...

I hate the way u treat me but i just dont give a damn cos u r not worth mine concern.... just leave me alone..

I just wan to leave in mine own world... where there is .....

And finally, i know n i m very sure of mine feeling nw... Is no more confused or even bothering me...

2006-08-12T11:59:00.000-07:00

Happi 18 birthday to my dearest friends... Eslyn!! =)

U offically legal for 4d, toto, drinking n clubbing..

Hope u realli had enjoyed ur very day!

2006-08-09T10:30:00.000-07:00

When you left I lost part of me!
It`s so hard for me to believe!
I took so long to forget u!

Becos of u i m fear of guys around me,
Becos of u i became more anti social,
Becos of u i lose faith to relationship,
Becos of u i dont trust ani guys,
Becos of u i started to hate guys,
Becos of u i learnt tat not every relation is gurantee steadable,
Becos of u i fear to enter a new relation,
Becos of u i nearly became retarted,
Becos of u i learn to be more independent,
Becos of u i lose mine 10 yrs of gd frenz,
Becos of u i became more weird than usual,

When u left, do u know how hurt i was.... U throw me alone facing all the saddness.
Do u know, i had to act strong infrontof mine frenz n u.. Cos i dont want ani one to look down on me...

I just wan to say , i m a ger that may look damn strong infrontof all mine friends n everyone who care for me. But i m just as fragile as a glass when i m left all alone... I just dont wan them to wry for me. n I m also a veri emo person...

i cried when u left me!

I took 2 yrs to forget u! N i managed to do so... during this 2 yrs it was like hell to me... But all thanks to all mine fellow friends that helped me out..

I m realli scared to get into another relation cos i m to afriad to get hurt.. I might get into one onli if i found one guys that will sarcified everything for me n love me more than loving himself.. i know is damn hard to find in real life..

I really content with wad i had in life now.. I got loving friends around me which i realli treasure them alot...

I just wan to tell u without u i can still be as happi as ever.. so pls dont interfere mine life ani more... I blog ths is not i cant forget u, but is to tell u how much impact u had cos in mine life n how happpi i m....
if u realli wan me to be happi pls set me free... n stop pesturing me.. I think we should nt contact ani more.. COs i dont wish to know ur life...

COnfused feeling surrounding me!!!

2006-08-09T01:45:00.000-07:00

HAppi 41 Birthday to SINGAPORE...
Today is national day.....

blah blah blah!!!!!

wrked life is interesting with patrick around!!

2006-08-06T08:17:00.000-07:00

Haha!

Sat
mine cds test is nonsense... All are just bullshititng la... 40 mcq, 1 short qn.... I realli scare i will fail la... I do the mcq till i damn sianx la... Is all nonsense, qn asked cant be found in the txbk la... Haix ... Let pray for me, hope i wil pass!!!!!! i got some shocking news from mine classmate n i think i should not mention ani thing here cos is a promise that i had made.

Sun
Wrked day... ...lol !!!! Is nonsense... i torn my uniform haha... DOnt asked me Y!! Patrick is known as uncle patrick la.. Anyway thanks patrick for wad u had done for me... realli thanks ... hHe treated me green apple juice la, i so touched lol... Cos i nv tell him i like green apple juice la.. hehe =)
wrking with mine uncle patrick is always so interesting lah.. blah blah blah!!! FInally, hush puppies is changing their uniform le la... i think will be nice lah.. the designer not bad hee =)
Any way, i just cant stand ppl accusing me of not replying their msg la... Pls... I m a person that will reply msgs wan la... At times will be late onli... blah blah! enough of naggin...

lalala....
Now then i know august got afew frenz birthdae la..
1) hui min 09/08
2) audrey 26/08
3) joyce .... 30/08(If i m not wrong hehe)
4) lyn... 12/08(but she turning 18 this yr)
5) joie... 08/08( if i m nt wrong) hehe

Anyway, happi birthday to all the names above even though i know is abit too earli la..
N sorri hui min, i think i cant attend ur 21 celebration tml... I need to prepare mine cds presentation after sch... present i will send to u at the later part.. Mayb went we meet... hehe =)
... lah lah lah

mummy pls come back soon, i miss u seriously... =) i had been tortured by monster... sad

2006-08-03T23:34:00.000-07:00

i know i m restless this few days....

Today went down to town to meet huishan n lingli.... Ya suppose to meet up to celebrate minmin birthday... It suppose to b a happi n surprise wan given by me, huishan, lingli n minmin's boyfriends...

The whole thing turn out to be a surprise n sad... Min's boyfriend break off with her after 5 yrs of relationship... But y must he choose on this day!!!!!!!!! Where it should b a happi n memorable one...Y?
Haix realli dont know how to blog la... I just feel sad for min... After wad happen just now! I m very sure n clear wad i wan n wad i dont wan... I m not confused animore!
Now i realli had no faith with relationship or even wedding... Both are fragile....

bear bear, i realli agreed with u.... I realli missed the study week for o levels... Where both of us will striking to score for our exams...Going back to school n study, pesturing the worst teacher, scolding the toopid toad, n i m the top student for geography remember... whahaha i wil nv 4get all this best memories... Do u stil remember the promises that with had made during sec5.... hope u will nv forget... Pls dont disappoint me.. Ya i realli miss u... keep contacts n let catch up ok...

losing faith with everyone.... haix...

2006-08-01T21:02:00.000-07:00

Hmmm, slept at 5am n need to get up at 7am to get to sch... Wad to do cos of mine cds lah... blah blah blah...

I swear i get out of mine hs at 8am sharp and i was late for mine lab test for 15 mins... count myself lucky ba, cos chun weng still let me sit for the test...

Anyway belinda n mine cds grp mate said i damn adnormal today... Y?? Cos i just want to me happi when i m not... alot of things happened recently.... Y must i faced all this unneccesary stress......!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I onli can be happpi n crazy in front of u guys ba...cos i know u guys for long.... I m not ready to tell ani one yet... I dont feel like telling anione ... I just one to me alone facing this problems... But went i realli cant face it, i will shared with u guys.

Everyone tell me times will heal all types off wounds... But how long will it take for me to heals the wound between him n me?? After so mani yrs living under the same roof, our relation didnt improve at all.... haix...

He told me all his problems that he is facing now... ok i worries for him oso... I scare he will do something silly... wad can i say is dont think too much ba!! let nature take it course ba....

things for me are bad.... nthing is good... Now for me, is to concentrate in my studies n treasure everything i had around me now...

Got to learn how to faces up those confusion feelings i had ba....

blah blah blah... I think i will be adnormal for this few days ba... cos i wan to be happi n free of everything...

money crisi!

2006-07-30T23:05:00.000-07:00

Today was wrking wif a new part timer, in the whole process of the operation. I didnt tok to him at all... didnt even bother to introduce myself to him la... Cos i dont know him at all...

Susan n joyce was saying that i seriously have problems breaking ice.... Haix! no choice... I dont know how to open up myself or can i say i dont know how to communicate with ppls that i realli dont know and even not close wif them la.. Haix i know i know wad u guys going to tell me la...

tired n i realli hope that j8 will hit 90% ... Then i will get mine commission la... hahha... Seriously i facing money crisi.... pls i need MONEY $$$$$$$..lala Will money fall down from the sky.... lalal

2006-07-30T00:24:00.000-07:00

FInally dbsy assignment is done! DONE! n i m so happy.. I worried if our grp is considered as late anot cos we hand in on 520pm lal..... After the submission of our dbsy, went for breakfast cum lunch cum dinner at one go la.. haha... thats a long day man... N we look like hungry ghost... oops... haha! All thanks to some off mine friends that realli taught me how to do mine dbsy module 4.. haha.. Reall thanks..

Went out with yy! todae, she found her perfect man... happi for her as she say she will not be alone for her bday this year... i know she has always wanting her special man to celebrate with her... This yr her bday will be a special wan... YY u have all mine blessing... N i wan to tell u stop pesturin me to find one... hehe... U should know y hehe... =]

Anyway, i m so tired after sleeping for 13 hr last nite n So i m going off to zzz again...
Last but not the least, i want to wish terresa my besties a happi 19th birthday.. even though i cant celebrate with u this yr but i already sent ur present to hk le... hope u will like it man ... miss u ... rock on... See u when i get to see u ba..

night friends... tml got wrk damn sianx la...

2006-07-26T23:35:00.000-07:00

I feel so relax and calm after the dsag lab test...
I realli got study n i know for sure 2 out of the 3 will be right... I did my best n all the effort that i gave in.. haha... I realli hope i can make it for dsag ca..sianx man...

Done with dsag lab test, done with opsy interview... ALmost done left with cds n dbsy.. lesson end at 4pm, then went to do dbsy till 830pm la... sianx right... we r tired ... insertion of values is driving us nuts ....

Next tuesday, i think i will have nervous break down again cos opsy lab test n oso cds formal presentation... Driving me nuts. 2 @ one go lol.. sure bluff mine way to through one lai.. let hope that opsy lab test wil be as easy as dsag oso... let pray for me!

i got mine next month schedule, damn lai they realli dont know how to plan the schedule wan la... 6,12,13 of august wrking from 12 to full la... when i give them 12 to 8pm.. N somemore at centrepoint again la... Centrepoint always got alot of ppl then very tired wan lai... i just wan to slack there to earn few hundreds dollar lah n not to make me feel tired lah.

I m always late for wednesday lessons... hehe =) But wad to do... No choice.. No matter how early i get out of mine hs, i will be still late for lesson on both mon n wed... So just leave it ba... dont even bother.. blah

National day is coming soon n EXAMS ARE APPROACHING SOON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Scary!!!

2006-07-26T02:28:00.000-07:00

ARGs... i need to vent my stress... I have been under alot alot of stress where no one understand...

I had not been wrking for long lai... 4day/ 3day per mth... My income to me is like not even 150... lol... N seriously i m in need of cash!!! PHone bill final reminder le, then mine broadband, money for hair cut, money for lunch!!!! ALl this need money....
CASH IS DAMN IMPT to me now.... haix.... After that incident, i had not take a single cent from him... I wan to b in mine own wrld... Depend on my two hands n legs to work for money to feed myself... Even though, time had heals up both our wound... But i can say that, there is still some thones there... Even though, he get b present occasionally but deep inside our heart, the incident is still ther...

Recently, mine this semester friends had been telling / feedbacks to me... COme on ger pls open up urself n u should walk out of these barrier tat i m having...

i did try! But after trying i m still back to the square wan lai... i seriously dont know wad happen to me lai... Mayb this is the impact i had after the incident.. I bcome more unfriendly to those ppls who i dont know... I just hate making new frenz... I dont like the feeling, i dont like to do introduction to ppl...
I know it for sure, during cmsk i will be straight dead this time round... Is not i dont like the ppl, is i dont know how to communicate with them... realli.. my cmsk grp mates are not that bad after all.

I know life is nv fair...

Heard from mum, that if grandfather is going to discharge. dad going to fetch him n stay at our hs la... N mum gonna get annual leave/ unpaid leave to take care of him... Wad the helll nonsense is this .... enough dont bother... i just want to lead a simple life...

mum having been asking me: when i going to bring a bf back to home to let her see... seriously now is not time to have one.. I m not ready for one, i need to concentrate on mine friends, study n to enjoy mine life... realli... having a bf surely bounce to neglect my frenx wan... COs to me frenx are much much impt than just a bf...

But i can confirm that i m 100% straight n i m not crooked... I just not ready for one yet...

opsy interview quite screw up la.. but overall should b k ..
dsag lab test? i wander how isssit like...
dbsy assignment sux like hell...
cds project out of point ... well done....

For me life had to go on... N deep in our heart wound are still there... i know it...
haix....

stress

2006-07-21T10:31:00.000-07:00

on thursday,
i suppose to have lessons @ 10am, n know wad i get out of mine hs at 930am. I can reach sch by 1010am, I M NOT LATE! hehe i m so proud of it. End at 2am n headed to do dbsy project finish creating the table in notepad... N we copy paste into oracle n lots of error come hauting us... ERRORS N ERRORS! hate errors ...After project headed to level 2 to find mine other 3 donkeys frenx... Saw danny, desmond n edwin inside the lab la.. haha... ONe of mine donkey frenz is like really crazy la, keep laughin n laughin non-stop... Dont know wad happen to her oso. haha!!! realli have fun with the present of them... Left the lab at 4plus ba.. When down to tpy n took train to novena ... haix shall nt mention where i go lai hehe... Something funni happen to lyn when we walkin to the bus stop...

Friday,
last day of apel for the semester... 3 cheers... So on the next few fridays, i will be in school at 1pm n home @ 2pm la... hehe... I was the second earliest for apel today.. very rare right hehe.. but know wad today apel no attendance taken lol.. nonsense waste our time . Desmond is so gay today mayb cos of his cap ba... finally, left 2 out of 15 table cant be created...ERRORS again... nonsense right...

haha... busy busy... stress stress... And additional information to all my tp frenz.... Exam timetable is out.... 3 days onli n we need to chiong all the ways ok.. cos semeseter 2.1 is coming to the end le ... 3 cheers for that kkkk... jia you...
omg, week 14 is coming... Week 14 is heavy for me cos;
1) opsy interview (tues 9am)
2) dsag lab test (wed 10am)
3) ooad milestone4(thursday 12 pm)
4) dbsy assignment(friday 5pm)

haix so stress man...................... all this are driving me nuts... i going to suffer from nervous breakdown soon...

haix...

audrey sorri i think i cant attend ur 21 bday le... cos of semester exam.. i will treat u the next time i see u kk.. shall catch up with u soon...

shall update more... to b continue..

2006-07-17T09:09:00.000-07:00

haix....

got a few big, lastest, hottest n juicy news recently...haix i shall not state it here... but thanks for the information that u guys provide me... whahaha

In t13, i think i can consider as a loner... cos i think i cant reali clique well with them lai.. i just cant stand certain ppl... N to mine big big surprise i m not the onli one who cant stand them. Ppls feedback me that they are hard to break the ice with me... I dont know lai... As i say my pride is damn impt to me, so i will not make the first move to tok to those ppls that i dont know... Cos ( nv tok to stranger ) haha that lames i know.... But aniway, i still love mine care group ppls... haha=)

i know i racist, but wad to do.... I born to be racist ba... i got realli good malay frenx but overall i still dislike malay la... hehe=)

grandfather might not be out on time for his 83th birthday ... Doctor say the earliest he can discharge is onli on next monday...
> he is suffer from diabetics
> next high blood pressure
> heart attack
> water retention
lot of sickness that cant be heal... But no matter how much i hate him, i still wan to wish him speed recovery... No choice without him around i dont know wad will happen to the family @ hougang!

haix, i m stress....
* lab test for dsag
* opsy interview
n mani mani more...

i m on a diet! stop asking me out for big feast plus supper... Specially: Audrey, leeli, jasmine, john, fricky n mani mani other more la... haha =)
but.... i u guys are not forgetten! u guys rock...

haha! those who wan to know mine lastest, hottest n juicy news in town pls asked me personally! kkk. =)

2006-07-12T20:40:00.000-07:00

Haix...

First lessons for the day is dbms! I m always late for wednesday.. And today is the worst i m late for half an hour. Lucky old granny is just so kind, cos she will nv marked us late.." she said late is better than not attending her class." lalala..
Cos of the rain, the traffic is damn bad lol... Jam like hell...Know wad i took 1 hr to get down to paya lebar... Let is damn wonderful lol..

End at 4pm, n need to get down to tpy to fetch monster home. Her tuition end early today. When i reached, the tuition centre i cant find her at all... Asked her teacher, she say no one fetch her hm. Called dad n mum no one picked up the call... MAke me so PANIC n SCARE... If i realli lost her, i will be straight dead... haix.... Lucky dad return called telling me he fetch her le..Stop giving me this feeling again ok.. I will get heart attack wan! Cos grandfather was admitted to hospital again... Again... This time is worst, he was sent to icu! N i need to get down to hospital immediately. When i reach there, the atmosphere is so...

Actually, i saw him i feel so ... haix i dont know how to say la.. I think bcos i went throught many bad incident, i dare not express myself again, i wanted to tell him sumthing but i just cant bring myself to do it. I nearly broke into tears but cos of mine pride i hold it back infrontof them.

Alot of peoples around keep telling me, u must learn how to forgive n forget... I do understand this logic but Y whenever i want to forgive n forget that person, he /she will come n haut me with those bad things again...

Yes i look strong but i m fragile inside... I carry a smile everyday and that doesnt meant i m happi...i just dont want my frenz around me to be affected with my emotions. No one will understand how i feel. i luv to disturb n mayb even bully mine friends around me and i know u guys might find me irrating but i doesnt meant it at all... Sorri n thanks for all the tolerant that u guys had gave me... I realli treasure n love u guys...I dont wish to loss ani one of u! I do realli miss all mine friends that i hadnt meet up for a long time !

Just alot of bad thing happen to me recently! Feel like crying n who will lend me a shoulder to cry out loud... I might just cry out loud at ani time... Is a serious crisis to me now, we have been through a lot of hardship before getting wad we have today n i realli dont wish to lost mine status today!

I had bcum a loner in class, i just cant realli clique with them lol... Mayb onli some of them! i think u guys will know hu i realli can clique with n hu i cant clique with... Ppls say i m anti social and prevent ppls from walking into me.

haix dont know lai!

2006-07-09T11:45:00.000-07:00

Mine mum say " i becuming more n more cold blooded as day went by..." She said when granny last away, i know how to shed a tear for her n even will.......

Ya, i admit this time round i mayb abit too much! but is not that i want to treat him like this... Enough of saying! U all should know me well enough, Once mind /decision is set, i will not change! That is me! Mine ans will be no! still a no no!

Pls lol, i had done mine part by visiting him went he is in the hospital... I think that is enough already... Y should I be so good to a person who treat me like shit! Huh!
I will nv forgot how he treat me when i took my younger sis 1st mth cake to his hs. He eventually say Y bother to bring the cake here in front of me n my dad... Bloody hell... U r our grandfather ok... So u r trying to say that u dont treat us as ur grandchildren rite... So in another words Y should i treat u as mine grandfather!!!

enough off my nagging abt him!!! anyway he is insignficant to me, mine sister n mine monster...Actualy inside deep in my heart, it is filled with lots of hatred! Nothing can cure the hatred between me n him...
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Ok today, woke up at 11 am cos of the phone rang! damn it... I bath n went out to do project... Saw marshal koh went i heading towards ps mac. Meet mei sin at ps mac, then we had our lunch first then continue with our project... we didnt do much haix shit scare not enough time man... Damn it... wad to do huh? no choice had to chiong tml after sch... hai...
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after project, meet up with mum... we went shopping at ps n had dinner at subway hehe... mummy u gonna cut down ur weight le... hehe... becuming tree trunk le ... Then mummy bought me the stick on for the mine zen neeon... hehe.. I choose the chic design which i like onli 3 design out of 4 in it... hehe... is so expensive man.. 12.90 lol... i need cash! haix
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Any way, work load is getting heavier! Offically starting work on 15 july this month... Go to dry cos i onli give 3days of schedule since last month... bloody hell... bad debts not clear yet... shit!!!!!!!
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Tonite mark the final of world cup... France vs Italy! who will eventually get the trophey and mark the champion for this yr world cup... both are strong... haha... Aniway, goin to catch the match later on! shit tml morning opsy tutorial lai die man!!! haha sure late!!!
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Anyway ending here !!! will update again ! haix

---dont think of today failure but of the success that may come tml! =)

rock climbing

2006-07-08T23:54:00.000-07:00

Do, i realli look different huh? without the spect, and my shoulder length reborned hair! Make me more different issit!!! Ok mayb dont have the nerdy look le... Haha!

I dont know, cos on friday saw jasmine and she say she cant recongised me at all..without wearing my spect =) Omg!! Anyway, if i can find mine sec sch pic
(short hair n the plastic spect ) i will load the pic to let u guys laught kkk!!!

Anyway today i went rock climbling with some climbers... Wow their skill are still as good as before not like me!! My skill getting from bad to worse! Mayb i haven been practising since the day i start my poly life.. Omg that long!!! I swear i will find more time out and practise my skills. hehe! Omg i m so sin man!!! I ate alot of things after the rock climbing... shit!!! Now mine whole body is aching!!! i hate sweating, but i just wont wan to give up mine favourite sport...

Wad to do!! lalala... tml had to do cds project, monday cmsk letter writting... SHit!!! I m just so tired!! i think i going off to sleep..

Tonight, 3am germany vs portugal to fight for the 3rd place in fifa world cup.
Who will eventually be the 3rd position in the fifa 2006 world cup... Germany or protugal? Anyway, i hope germany will win this match.. Anyway, i dont think i will watch the match cos i m just too tired! man =)

2006-07-06T23:11:00.000-07:00

Grandfather is down, still in the hospital. Just done with the operation and i think his condition is still the same or even becum worse! i just dont know how to describle but it lai......

Any way his 84 birthday is coming, it fall on the 23rd of july, if i m not wrong is a sunday. I think i will not be able to attend lol, cos i will be working on that day at centrepoint with pat.... I feel so happi that i myself will not be attending it. Cos i just dont like some bastard there. I dont wish to see their faces lol... But my dad die die also wan me to go lol, cos he say u will nv know, it might be his bday celebration le... But must i, realli need to go? Over there we will be the netural party that always get bully by others!! Bloody hell! i think i should not mention it here. I will not be like ppls begin so fack, cry n cry when even not die yet lol... Pls lai come on! Our family will not fight with u ppls abt the will... Me n my sis will not take ur ten per cent of his will wan lol, cos simply it does not belong to us...

Anyway, i think i dont stand a chance! haix! i think i will not think too much n touch it anymore. i will let nature take it's course ba! blah blah blah!!!

lalalala.... I m so bore in ooad lab so i decided to blog!!! whahahaha

2006-07-04T08:39:00.000-07:00

Ok, first all i need to clear some doubts!!!

PLs i m 100 % straight!!!! I luv guys!!! Onli guys no other more... Ya so wad if i got lots of frenz around me are not straight, but they are still my besties forever... But pls dont try to change me, i know myself best...

nine o'clock i should have opsy lab lol..And i m late for it... I reach school at 930 am... Is half an hour late lol, andmy opsy lab tutor sure 100% mark me absent wan lol.. haix.... Haha, i got no lab sheet for lab lol and know wad beside me that farnie guys also dont own his lab sheet lol. I wanted to print mine so i asked if he wan, his reply was that his frenz printed for him le... I started to print, the printer in the lab cant work lol..No choice, i had to go up to level 7 to print my lab sheet... =( sobx man!

Ok, today lessons end at 4 as usual lol.. Finally my cds teacher change no more david but Is Elise lol... Bloody hell worse than david....For our grps Cds is meant for us to tok nonsense and play lol.... SHitty ass man... i seriously hate that bitch!!! Wad after grp discussion there must be a grp presentation... That is all nonsense and bull shitting lol... hell man!!!

After cds, when to do our grp project on PM Mr lee hisen loong until 6pm then went down to marina square to meet my 3 donkey friends... I must thanks to Joshua cos he send me down...whahaha... We will playing n toking like crazy lol, during our dinner... lalala.. Just enjoy been with them...is so farnies!!!! =) lots of lame joke crack by the few lamers man... should not mention here... Is for us t know n for u to find out wad are the lame joke that we crack hehe=)!!! love u guys man ...

And lastly, Realli thanks joshua to drive me to marina square!! !love u toos...
hope to see u soon!!!

world cup is coming to the end of it... tonight semi- final : germany vs italy! @ 3am... if i going to watch, i gonna miss dsag n dbsy man... whahaha...

got to go...

2006-07-02T07:52:00.000-07:00

Hi, i back to blog again...

Finally opsy is done, and i m still stress.... Is so pro for me i took 9 hrs to complete mine opsy...

Yesterday was flag day from 1pm to 6pm lol... That is very long... Seriously i hate flag day the most lol. we started our day by taking photos lol... whahaha.. then se started to sell flag till 3 pm. We stop n have lunch at sub way with mine donkey frenz... lala...Then meet up the rest at Kpool...Is so farnie over there.. Saw bel hmmm cant say lai or gonna kanna get box hehe=).... Veri suprise that he was there too, i wasnt aware he was there lol.. He sms me n tell me he actually saw me.. ok lai... we suppose to meet up at dhoby ghaut at night but in the end i cancel it... After the flag day, me n bell went shopping. We get down to far east then to heeren n back to cine for subway.. We ate 12 inches of bread yesterday.. whahah... After dinner we headed for train, and i saw him n his frenz loll.... n we eventually got a good tok in the train.. Really touch with his care..ok no more detail is pc...haha

Ok today was Johnson Big day... Finally ur big day was here sorri for not attending the dinner hope u like the gift...

Opsy is done left leadership n dbsy... bloody hell... I already tired to death... I need a break... pls...

Ya i m very happi this few days.. no reason but i m feel glad!!! =) hehe

2006-06-25T00:42:00.000-07:00

Wad i wan to say alot alot alot!!!

First: today went to wrk at habour front lol... Know wad bloody hell.. They eventually open the shop in front of macdonald n our behind is starbuck... We r in between lol... The fragant of the coffee n the nice smell of mac make us....... Can u image.... Ok today two part timer run shop very intelligent right plus pro!!!!Nicholas was late for wrk, n for so long today was the first time we wrk together... whahaha.. He is just so funny wrking with him... He gave me one hush puppies doggy so cute... First day wrking with him, there will so mani problem!!! First was the POS got problem lol, i think not happi with me huh!!! Then second, float shortage of money, third have to void all the transaction due to the incorrect date cos my the POS!!! Fifth the metal bar in on the shelfing drop n hit onto my leg LOL.... Sixth, the shop store room was at level 5, whenever the customer choosen that model of shoes i had to run up to level 5 n collect the shoe... toopid hell... Ok no more complain... But overall wrking with nicholas is cool fun lame n joy!!! N Another abt wrk! congrate Nicholas u r going to act as an in charge in habour front for the next few month before u go to ns.... N remember dont be sad over ur gerfrenx leavin u to oversea kk...

Ok back to family wise!!!
Grandfather can b discharge tml....Nthing much to mention abt him cos there isnt much to mention abt him too=)...Dont know lai!! Some toopid ppl spreading rumours that i dont even care abt my grandfather... I didnt even bother to visit him!!! pls lol... i got lol... When he was admitted to hospital i was there lol. then the second day early in the morning i also went there lol.. PLS lol.. not like u ppl right... Should i pharse it this way, oH u guys r just waiting for his will! PLs i dont even want a single cent from him... That is his money his asset not mine... Haix dont want to mention abt him ani more... A bit sianx to tok abt them... So irrating!! !WHahaha

I m so tired after one day of wrk... So i think i going off to zzz le... Bye guys to be continue....... ....

oops i think i should say this to.....:
The care that u show really touch me...whahaha =) thanks for all the care n advise given during this period of time!!!

St3am fish!!!

2006-06-21T23:04:00.000-07:00

Lalala! i m back.... Here i getting rusty!!!

Two weeks of holidays, celebrated bell bday, royce bday....
Royce's bday cos me to be sick lol... We walk in the rain n is so romatic lol... U guys know wad i mean lol. whahaha... plus famous amous fault lol... Ate quite a few grams lol.. =)

Sunday went to granny's hse to celebrate father's day... Over there we have a big feast lol... Eat n eat tok n tok n play mahjong lol =).....Realli enjoyed myself there lol... I love them.... hehe... Aunt's condition did not improved at all... haix... Dont know how!!! Hope she can recovered soon...God pls saved her!!!!...

Monday went back to school to do dsag project....Is driving me nuts lol... hehe =).... [",] And know wad happen during midnight... My grandfather admitted to hosiptal during midnight lol... Omg! let me tell u! My father's side relative all so... haix dont even bother to tok much abt them... hehe!!! Eventually they cry n cry over there...Pls la he will not die so fast lol... Cos is just onli high blood pressure onli... Anyway, daddy bought me Zen Neeon... Thanks daddy!!!

tuesday back to school to do dsag project again... Before back to school went to tts again lol.. haha... then daddy drive me to town then to school... My naughtiest aunt came to my hse n stay... Know wad! Ya she bought us durian n even durian puff!!! lol... =)

Wednesday today is a busy busy day!!!! Know wad! back to school at 11 am lol... To do ooad... Amazing we managed to complete the whole assignment... 3 cheers for myself.... The compilation wrk of ooad can kill me man... Seriously...
Now left with dsag n opsy... Dsag realli driving me nuts.... Have to hand in on tuesday 10 am lol... wad the hell... opsy is due on the week 11 lol... sianx... haven even touch opsy man..=( work load killing me now....

heard alot of things in wrk.... Pat is very unhappi that i gave so litte schedule lol...No choice i realli very busy lol...

OK here let me do some wishing before i go off...
first happi bday to marshal koh shan rong [(dumb dumb),(Sru Sru), ( liu tai tai)].
Second happi bday to Chee Yung [(bearbear)]
third happi bday to Flore
four happi bday to Benjamin [(ben)]

that all shall update again!!!!
zhen

2006-06-10T00:01:00.000-07:00

FINALLY TERM TEST IS OVER!!!.... OVER!!!! N Y3AH FOR ME...

Next week will be the week for me to enjoy myself before i get down to ani assignment... Realli sound like me right... Actually i had all the schedule on hand le... hehee...Is time for us to meet up frenz....

First let me do some wishing to my fellow frenz who have becum 19 today..Ya i know u guys busy with ur boyfrenz la.... But meeting up soon rite is ok... haha:) So :
Happi birthday to : Grace, Leon n Hui lin.... U guys rock mine life... May all ur wish come true kk... !!!

Secondly, after term test we went to cine for movies lol... On the way to town is so damn funi... We meet one indian, who have a damn big infra red on his head... N my two donkey frenz (lyn n sr) was asking me to look at his infra red lol.. hehe:) N belinda miss her chance... N accused me YY I nv take the pic of his big infra red... hehe.... I think she like india with big infra red right.... oops she gonna kill me soon!!!! hehe.... Lyn more funni she is blur! haix shall not say much abt it... Then i more blur lol... Tell them the wrong row of seat n make them so ma loo hehe....sorri gers i m dreamin at that time... I got penny of thought at that moment... Met alot of ppls at cine, saw elthera, see yong, jian lang, flora, ivan chew n evelyn... haah:) Miss elthera the most... touch ma.. hehe.. See u guys tml...

Hai.... I LOST MY WORKING UNIFORM.... HOW???? HOW M I GOING TO TELL SUSAN N I SURELY KANNA AIM WAN THIS TIME ROUND.... DIE MAN... SAVE ME... i think i left it at suntec outlet but they say dont have mine uniform there,.... Any way i dont believe them.... so i going to head down tml morning... And search their store room upside down... Wait n see if i can find mine uniform hehe...:) Who to blame no one but myself. who asked me to be so careless n blur.... haix... I swear i will not hehe!!! only for the time been onli...Cos I know myself well enough hee....:)

going to sleep soon...
World cup is offically here n i need enough rest for wrk tml or thing going to crop up again so no world cup for me today!!!! hehe...

love all frenz who i saw today n of cos my donkey frenz... (nv regret knowing u guys)....

good nite

2006-06-08T23:43:00.000-07:00

I swear i will nv shed a tear for ani guy any more...

Today, i realise that none of a guy is devoted..... N i know tat i cant find a perfect guy....

Tonite i received the worst news i ever had...Aunt's condition turn out to be damn bad.... bad... Wad can i do for her .... she adore me the most... And i almost think that she had a good hubby... but today, i realised that he WASNt a good wan at all. Juz that she got sickness on hand u just wan to leave her... wad was the promise u guy make during wedding...

No matter u r healthy or sick u will be by her side... but now.... wad u did to her.. leaving her with the sickness n ur two children... Wad can i say... i got no rite to say any thing but just too keep quite n hate U FOREVER... this realli make me lost faith to all guys... there is no trust or no promise they can fullfill... at all......

To me:
once u hurt me, there is no turning back....

N to ah ger, now i can tell u that i dont feel anything on him already... yesterday i may still have but now my ans is NO... cos he hurt me n there is no chance in turning back... Ya, i will stop looking for the person who hold the key that open mine heart now... For me now the most impt thing n person in mine life is:
- my aunt, -my granny, -my family, lasty my friends. MY part time job n study... that all...

I swear i will not let ani one hurt me again.

key

2006-06-08T11:45:00.000-07:00

Bad... bad... news again... i think i not going to mention must over here... Those who had known me for years know wad happen.. lai... here i need to thanks all of u for the advice n.......concern.... after this incident i finally saw the true colour of wad real frenz is... I have no regret knowing u guys... truely madly in touch with u guys... True friends dont need must... just a few will do...

Yesterday night was toking to my bestie... She told me she finalli found her correct key that open her heart... I feel so happi for her... She told me how eventually that guy woo her... i realli feel so touched for u ah ger ... Ya ah ger, must treasure him ok... Ya, i still remember we both sweared before who ever found the key to open up their heart first, had to buy a gift in return to wish the other party all the best in the relationship... I will get it on sunday n get it to u on monday KKK... Remember stop nagging me to find my key... This type of thing have to let nature take it course wan... Mayb mine fate is not here yet n I had not found the correct key that open up mine heart... N as u know lai... i haven realli get over that incident yet..I m very confuse.... I will tell u more when we meet up on monday for dinner kkk... anyway stopped asking me to find mine key.... mayb he is the one that hold the key to mine heart... i not sure abt it....!!!!!!!

lalalala....

Hey u ppls are this 3 freak arh.... Joyce hau, royce hau n shawn hau.... Stop all ur nonsense.... me n my sis had made the final decision... N we will not change mine mind...lol :)but ani way thanks...

2006-06-06T17:20:00.000-07:00

Term test is finally half way there... Ending soon... DSAG realli haix.. dont know how to describle oso... Can say is a gone case for me... Dont wad they wan... I did study lol... and i forgot all the code... intelligent right.. whahaha... I need helped for my dsag.... Where is joyce n wilson... U guys promise to help me wan lol...

ok.... I cant wait for friday to come... cos that is end of term test... i miss havin supper with them... realli... Ya ya... let have one on sat night kkk.. place u guys make the decision...
tml is dbsy n friday will ooad and that all for term test..

yesterday, boi came back to sing le... Met him n his new gerfriend.... ya very sweet.... he is back to visit aunt n do his body check up. haha... u r so dead man...hay aniway u know wad i mean le... thanks for ur gift... i like it alot...realli... Pls, stop mugging me to get a boyfriend now n u should know YYY? n i will not voice it out here... haix alot of thing happens recently....

Today is 060606, where alot of couples had mark down their promise to their loves one...

i think that all... back to my dbsy... byebye :/

2006-06-04T22:42:00.000-07:00

2 called in the morning that made me wake up n cos me to feel so depress..

first called:
it was from tan tock seng hospital admin. the called was abt : arranging n making a schedule for me to get down for a full body check up...
Again n i know that i cant avoid them this time round... i ought to give them an ans... And the ans for this time round must be a yes...cos i had push it away for dont know how mani donkey time.... N for me u guys know lai, the ans will b no again.. Ya mei lin thanks for ur care n concern, my 3rd auntie's condition was very bad... very bad... Visit her if u can.. joyce n royce is gonna break down soon...

haix after the discussion with mine fellow cousins.. most of them will b going for the check up.... for me the ans will be no again...i will agree to go first then, when the date come i will find some excuses.... lalala.. Ya i agree that i m afriad... wad if happen i realli got it.... huh? how should i handle it... u tell me...i dont want to know it...

Second call:
it was from joyce, telling me her mum's conditions.... haix i know how u feel joyce.... u have mine support lai any way.... must take care of royce...i know auntie's condition is bad... but wad can i do... i cant do anything but just to pray for her..... I realli hope she will recover soon... i dont want to see her suffer...

i m not a christian, i dont believe in god at all.. But this time round, i have to help joyce n royce pray: may god bless all my beloved aunt.... Let us pray together..... joyce n royce i will visit u guys soon after mine term test... u guys have to wrk hard too for ur common test....

luv u guys...

TERM TEST

2006-06-02T22:45:00.000-07:00

TERM TEST IS ON MONDAY!!!!!!!!! MONDAY!!!!!!!! JUST ONLY A FEW DAYS AWAYS!!!! DIE DIE... I THINK I KNOW NUTS ABOUT EVERYTHING... I M WORRY ABT

MY DSAG
MY DBSY
MY OOAD
N
MY OPSY

ACTUALLY IS EVERYTHING I M WORRY ABOUT IT....

HAI... I THINK I SHOULD MAKE IT SHORT FOR THIS ENTRY.... TML I WILL START MUGGING ON MY NOTES... HAIX

ALLL PEEPS PLS WISH ME LUCK!!!!!!!!!
THOSE WHO HAVING TERM TEST OSO LUCK TO U GUYS TOO...

LALALA

2006-06-01T22:38:00.000-07:00

. i Seriously cant stand some ppls around me le. Some just like to win... Some just like to fight for rewards. Wad more do u wan more from me.

Seriously, i dont understand some ppls. I know if i going to post this online... There might be a racial riot going on soon. Ppls that are close with me will know wad happen n know wad i mean right... Pls if u happen to read my post right, i just want to tell u stop pushing any blame to me any mor. I just cant take it any more. The first time, i can forget abt it, the second time i just ignore u but the third time i will get nusty le lol.. So Stop it, i had a limit to it.

Ok enough of nagging le back to serious work...

Today suppose to be mine big day... ya, but i decided to cancel it... SO IS ALL OVER... NOTHING CAN SAVE THIS BACK. forget it... I feel so happy that i regain my freedom.. ..

Lab test pass. It was fine to me, first can b compile but not the second one.... How will i score...? is all a question mark i dont know... Haix..

After all this shit, monday is the offical day for term test.... Onli 3 wrds can describle, OMG... Save me out of all this stress...

Reminder: Today the wedding dinner is cancel.... Remember this...

butch. gay n les

2006-05-30T20:31:00.000-07:00

Ok, today cds deadline.... Finally is all over for the review of a few good man... Overall the show was not that bad...nice... Ya if u wan to become a real leader u guys should watch this movie.. (As if onli)...

Cds Tutorial is for us to crap and do chit chatting... So topic for the day was Butch, lesi and even gays.... One of my grp mate asked me YYY m i single? So i reply i just love mine single life n not realli for one yet.. So guess wad she reply me... Are u looking for a perfect ger!!! Oh my god!!! A perfect ger u know!!! PLs come on i m straight and i m always straight... Then another grp mate of mine was telling me that a butch n a les doing kissing is NORMAL n She doesnt mine it at alll... And she tell me she realli mine how both gay doing kissing u know... Hay.... i think i joined the wrong grp for my project cos they are all not straight... Trying to ask me to join them... OMG... but they are realli cool as a friend..... i willnt go steady with a butch just becos she/he was handsome lol....This is very wrong concept n is not me.

went tm with eka bell to buy her friend bday gift. then went down to my meet mine 2 gay friends... yaya... Then just came back from hong kong and bought me some gift... I m so touch meet up to have dinner n crap for a while... And they send me home before they go meet another friends of mine... Love u guys...
!!!!!!!!!!! Miss u too.... Leaving sing must tell me hor... whahaha...

Farnie days

2006-05-29T21:50:00.000-07:00

Today i having been laughing since the day had started.

First with mine groups of good friends... Telling me the ba boo seng... Ok now i admit lai ok, i like ba boo seng with those have big bun on their forehead. Yaya, i oso getting married on the 1st june of 2006. With mine beloved ba boo seng...BUT NOT HIM OKIE!!!!

Ya, during my ooad tutorial lesson. Evenlyn n I was laughing like hell.. I realli laugh n laugh until my tutor wan us to stay back after my tutorial to tell her wad i laughing and wad was my joke abt.... haha

The joke was so funni, alex had turned into an uncle who bring birds to coffee shop in the early morning after his morning exercise...right alex... haha... ok ani way just a joke....I so honour that u wan to long pang me home... Nvm next week we can shared cab again.. :)

Ok, i got abit of screw up during my interview today... But overall is ok ba... lalala... So scared....man...

Get down to orchard to collect my phone, and my phone was back to me again...
lalala... so happi! now mine phone is faster n not so easily hang.... whahah!!! :)

lalalala... And one last thing to say was Belinda during my honey moon i wan to go sydney and join u with..... whahahaha.....

I realli enjoyed my day today... I hope that today will be mine everyday!!!
Ya going off to sell durian... lalalalal.....

2006-05-27T00:00:00.000-07:00

Today is ccn day n apel lesson was cancel.. This mean that i have no lesson for the entired day... No lesson n i need to be back in school @ 9 am lol... For wad? by cds project lol.. Which is due on the next tuesday afternoon... Haix...

Suppose to go down to orchard to send mine phone for serving. But i m too lazy to get down to town... So after 12, met up with bel, sr to shop around sch... Bel bought 2 bags lol... 2 doughnut... 1 candy test tube... We went enginee school to shop around... Happen to spot vieve... This is the first time i saw her in tp.. lol.... Happi for her, cos her dream had come true lol...

Reaching home at 5 plus... I bath and get out of my hs heading to the doc... I fall asleep while waiting for my turn... I dreamt of something funni but i cant remeber wad was the dream abt.. haha.. i will try my best to recall... then i shall update here... kkk!!! doc say i had tired myself too much... Lack of sleepness and giving myself too much stress cosing headache almost everyday... He knew that i hate to take medicine n this time round the medicine was double wad i had in the past...

haix... shall update more... when i m free... now busy rushing my cds report... see u guys byebye

2006-05-25T07:31:00.000-07:00

hai!!!

Received some news from mine good friends.. They are not good news lol...I can understnd how u guys feel... But i believe that u guys will find ur true lover somedays... Just let nature take it course...

YYY must u guys turn into a butch or even a les...Cos u guys dont deserve being a les or a butch just bcos of these few toopid fellows... They are just junk!!! Y!

But i want to let u guys know something: No Matter hu u r!!! A butch or a les i will treat u all as my best friends... i will not forget those happi memories... Trust me i will not isolate u guys... U all will be mine forever best pals.

2006-05-24T08:33:00.000-07:00

Today, went to tpy to bring my monster back... Meet dad for dinner n he drove me down to china town to just cut my hair...ONLI my fringe...Not that bad lai... but abit regret... Haix...

toopid me! Knowing i cant eat prawn n sea food any more and I ate them during dinner with dad!!!!

Happi eating mine prawn so nice but now i m suffering... Is so itchy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I realli love prawn!!! but... haix...

Any way lab test n term test is coming!!!

scare!!!

2006-05-22T23:59:00.000-07:00

i dont know! i think onli saddness can describle how i feel... Very confused... i seriously suffering from a bad headache after the quarrel with some one.

Seriously, she pushed all the blame on to me... I cant take it ani more... She say is this how u treat friends... I say all the bad things abt her... I can swear i didnt say it at all.. i believe u guys who know me well enough will know if i dare to say i will dare to admit... But this time round i realli innocent... N yet she pushed all the blame to me... YYY? issit me!

I realli feel very bad....U sms me n tell me that let not talk abt this at the moment... U had hurt me n now u asked me to forgive u without a sorri... I realli hard to bring myself throught... Is not i dont want to forgive u, but seriously i think i need some time... I been accused, i just hate those feelings...If u r me, i think u willnt like this feeling to...

just leave me alone first.... :( i feel like crying out loud but is not my fault i should not cry...

Today, i suppose to end school at 6pm.... But i didnt go for my ooad tutorial.... i skip n had dinner with my mates.. after that i company my two fellow mates to their lect....

when the lect ends, to my horror i saw sum one who i had not since for a very long time... he lol... dont know yyy! suddenly i had a very strong feeling towards him...i dont yyyy! my heart beat jump so fast lol.... haix is all nonsense... i dont have ani feeling towards him ani more... ANIMORE finally i can forget him n it realli take me damn long... lol..haha...

2006-05-20T23:32:00.000-07:00

I seriously dont understand! And i think that is impact to flora is very big... Y mut guy always be the one been unfaithful. Y cant they be like us been faithful to them...

And is love that fragile? I dont know the answer! so dont asked me oso. Knowing each other for more than 6 years n the relationship turn out to be sour in the end.. Is this wad they wan? I think flora willnt want it.. cos i knew that she love him a lot alot...

Flora now wad u have to do is to be strong n forget him totally... i know is difficult but u must still forget him.... He is not worth ur crying... Wad i wan to tell u is how u stand by myside that time, i will do the same... so when u need me just give me a call ok.... I have make it so i think u can mak it too...

Sorry guys! i cant make it yesterday for supper sorry... I left at nine cos i got something impt.... so sorry... I miss u guys! Realli

Work, i tired off this work already... for next month, i suppose not to give ani schedule wan but susan asked me to help her.. So no choice, i gave 3 day onli... Ya.... Nor was been sack by susan... Sad for her... :) i lost one best kadi liao. sad right.... haix...

hope that next month schedule will be at a better place...

tired! tired! tired!

Friday again

2006-05-19T20:04:00.000-07:00

Seriously, i suffered headaches almost every friday lol... Haix... thanks to all of them man....Dont know wad u guys up to lol....

Wad to do! I hate sat, cos i need to wrk lol... And worst still is full shift for tml...haix... That means that i will be having my lunch n dinner after 1000pm... And to prevent myself to get fat, we will be walking back home lol.. Issit it cool... Yeah, i think so....

Ok yesterday, met ah de li, thera and oso alan @ bugis. As usual i m late.... But thera is later then me lol... hehe :)....Actually i miss alan alot alot, i have not since him for ages... We went shopping! Ya looking for make-up for ah deli... We went anna sui to look for my lip gross first... but in the end i cant find the colour i wan.. so sad... End up buying from red earth lol...And alan was so bored cos we are a busy entertaining ourself n leaving him alone... hehe:)

then we walked all the way from bugis to orchard..that was a very long way n i m sweating like hell lol... thanks to them man... haha... then went to ngree ann the hong kong china town for dinner... It was a big bomb, i think i can say that hehe...

Shop shop shop around ngree ann... went to look for derrick... and crap all the way... i think i buy a pair of shoes from xdous n novo.. think so onli lol... no money !!!!!!

ok i know i been bad ok ah de li n thera... OK I MISS U GUYS TOo... We gonna meet up tml again...

Happi Mother Day

2006-05-14T00:21:00.000-07:00

First of all, i want to wish every mother in the world a Happy Mother Day. Wow mother is the most impt ppl in our life...

Ok.. get back to the main points.... Work realli sux... I seriously dont know how to describle that.. Make me piss off... First cheque arrive since monday and no one bother to call me and inform me.. fine... Second i m only late for 5 minutes so pls dont urge me like hell.... Third, i know sale sux wad to do cos of the location is bad lol... Today, suppose to wrk from 12 to 8 n thanks to those 4 part timers who put aeroplane at the same time.... Causing insufficent part timers in every store... Wad to do, no motivation mean no mood to work and this result in low sales... Pls use ur brain who will wan to buy ur shoe where there is no size... So i slack all mine way throught today but i m still tired.... Is ok, let me count down 2 more days to end the work schedule for may... Should i carry on... i think not unless u willing to put me at centrepoint.... if not then 4get it....

tired tired...lost all mine motivation toward this job cos u gave me an outlet that i dont like...

A ger that had been hurted before is hard for her to get back her usual self, especially those who look strong but is fragile inside...

Happi mother day !!! Mother rocks

2006-05-08T22:42:00.000-07:00

Is just onli the third week of school.... And!!! .... ....

Many thing happens recently!
Got a few problem that is not solved yet....
N i realli meant it.... Trouble with it... But i think i will get over it soon... :)

I m happi for shan rong... haha i think i wil not mention much over here... U guys know abt it lai.. haha... Just jokin... Btw shan rong thanks for ur help hor... hehe...

1 of e hard3st things in life is havin words in ur heart that u can't utter.

Yesterday, was with gillen, roy n judy at suntec since afternoon... Wanted to do manicure wan but my friends was not free as she was serving other ppls.... And have to wait very long... She is leaving the outlet soon
After that we went to bugis, for shopping...Shopping again... hahaha... lalala...

Pls! i m just who i m....

haix carry on with mine report...Sianx

stupid police

2006-05-05T23:57:00.000-07:00

Tml is offically singapore voting day, and mine place here have to vote too...

i stayed near at the polling station which was my ex- secondary sch... YYY m i saying this in my blog where i dont need to do ani voting lol!

let me tell u... Just now i came back from school then i went out again to give mine friend his bday gift...On my way home, there was a lot of police man n police woman... I was kanna stop by a police woman... Know wad happen she dont believe i stay at that blk lol... dont even allow me to get in lol... Demand me to show her my ic... And i didnt bring my ic out of my house lol.. i got no choice la called my dad to save me... She dont even believe in wad my dad say lol... idoit police woman... Ya i know is security purpose u oso dont have to make me so embrasse lol... Moral of the story bring ic wherever u go... Can u imagine this happening to me... this is the first time i ever stop by a police... she is just tryin to find trouble....

lalala...counting down... 4 more days to end my this month schedule... i think i will not give my schedule le... till the next holidays ba ! i haven confirm yet have to see how thing go by ba... i m tired of wrking... But if i dont give my schedule i will be going to eat grass... no income lol... haix

Some one keep irrate me recently... that person is some one that i use to trust the most, use to tell him all my sorrow n all my secret. but recently i think he realli irrates me n i m piss with it... Seriously tell u stop all the nonsense... that is my life y should i tell u when i dont trust u ani more. Simply bcos u betray mine trust...once u hurt me or betray mine trust, i swear i will nv ever trust u again...

second week of school

2006-05-03T11:13:00.000-07:00

School... to me haix...

I realli dont know wad to do..... Alot of feeling towards sch.... How i wish how is my term/semester break at least i dont need to face all this uneccessary stress..

I dont want to be separated haix... feel very sorrow, despress, sad, angry.. alot of emotion feeling... I believe i m not the onli one feeling this way...I think glitters feel this way too... right..

I m very anti-social towards ppl that i dont know or even those ppl i know but not closed... i will not talk much n sit alone by my self... i m not a highly adaptable person lol..

ppl around me takes thing for granted when i been nice to them...

i dont like this... but wad to do... life is just like this...

Going around n make new friends??? Ans :dunno

LALALA

2006-04-27T07:43:00.000-07:00

hi! back to blog...

The fourth day of school today... haix1! we went down to town together... after school at 2 with lyn me rong n bel... but bel went to bugis.

Suppose to go do some manicure for free but we did not go cos it was too late le... by the time went lyn frenz finished doing liping n daniel finger... then it was like 6 plus le lol... then i feel so tired.. then me n rong went home...

We took some pic at the dfs... Quite nice... haha.. got rong's pic lai hehe
photo time:

ok lai i think i should end here le... more pic to come lol.. lala

sch starting in few hour time

2006-04-23T08:42:00.000-07:00

haix...

Mood was rather bad this few days in work... Y dont asked me yyy... i feel very insulted by someone...... Is not i cant take joke ok... is already reaches the limit i have... ur joke is not a joke at all is an insulted to me...

haix... a few more hrs to sch reopen... It wil be a sad day for c102 lol.. We guys are not in the same class animore man... No more nonsense from them... We are not even in the same lecture hall n even our break cant even meet up... haix... I hate to make new friends cos i dont like to talk to ppls that i dont know....hai tml lesson till 6 can u imagine... wad the hell.. haix no more complains i think ...

Wad is all abt leadership n character can ani one tell me plss.... should i change my cds... i dont know... haix... i got alot of second thoughts man...dunno wad to do... oso.....

Alot of emotions feeling... sad, n alot more lai.. i dont know how to say it out man.. haix .....

Tml lesson start at 9am sure to be late for school again.. sianx... is always like this...

2006-04-20T00:57:00.000-07:00

The day before yesterday should be a wednesday, i should not be working becos of sb... i when for wrk...
And lately, i have been late for wrk... cos simply i cant wake up n i have to go to tampines mall... bloody hell... haix... no more complains.. i have to torturate a few more days n it will be all over... liao :)

fine today got my timetable for the 2.1 semester... know wad i got for my cds... leadership n characters.. wad is this man... i even heard that i need to pay 10 dollars... haix... sian.... My timetable abit like shit lol... dunno how... oso... my class kanna split all different class.liao... sianx..sad abt it ...

Anyway i m glad that i m in the same class with yemin... hehe...but hai sad that we glitters cant be in the same class....wad a sad sad day...

today sales was damn bad... know wad till 6pm mine sale was onli 3.80 lol.. haix
wad to do... stand there do nthing reading 8days, newspaper n seventeens onli lol.. I reached shop at 1130am n when for mine lunch at 12... As usual.. haha... when i go for lunch, i walk pass starbuck... guess hu isaw... Yes bryan... hehe he was smilling to me...

Hahah...

how?should i change mine cds... i dunno... wad a cds i had...

3 more days to school and 3 more days i will be free from wrk i m so happi.. great... hehe :)

cheers for me.. i onli wrking on sat... 4 days of schedule given onli... :)
so happi

2006-04-17T08:38:00.000-07:00

Do u guys believe in first sight love?

dont know yyy! today someone closed msg me this... Asking me this question... I just wanna said that.. I do believe in first sight love but i dont know whelther issit long lasting... Mayb a first sight love have to put in more effort compare to other type of love life ba...

Hai dont asked me that la.. i dont know how long nv start a relationship le lol.. pls!

N i dont think i wan to start a relationship at this moment... I m happi with wad i have now... I m not lonely at all cos i have lots of friends around me to gudie me along n accompani me when i m bored n lonely...

i Still love u guys... cos u guys realli rock my life.... specially....

So patrick u dont even need to bother to find me one ok... But i will definitely look out one for u ok.. hehe:)
U wan xdous wan or u wan those promoter from metor, istean, seiyu under hp.. wan hehe:0

Now i miss the most is actualli ling li.. i had not since u for more than 3 months le...lol... u know! u busy woman...

lalala....

i did enjoy myself

2006-04-16T01:10:00.000-07:00

Ok... Back to blog again...

Know wad today wrk at great world.... Is so sinful... let me tell u why issit sinful
First of all, for breakfast i had red bean soup n a cup of spirt in the morning... Spirt in the morning can u imagine it...
haha....

Ok for lunch, joyce n me had a packet of fry carrot cake... hehe... Fry carrot cake loh is so damn oily... today stress arh the sale at great world is normal damn good but i wrk there arh no sale lah ... sianx

then when joyce went for her dinner, micheal n i asked her to help us buy the sundae ice cream... I ate the chocolate n micheal ate the strawberry so funni man... Hey btw joyce dont feel gulity ok... IS ok wan lai.... i think i should not say it out... haha... u know i know n micheal know can le... haha

Then after wrk at 8pm, when down to centrepoint to meet ar de li for dinner... DInner again u know...
Wad we had for dinner, opposite the orchard plaza the open food court...
Both of us ate:
3 pieces of barbcued chicken wing
one bian fish
one omettle eggs

THen from orchard plaza we walk to orchard emerald OE moss burger to get one big packet of french fries... Then while walking down to heeren we stopped and bought 2 cups of ice cream n continue walking to ngree ann... haha... Suppose to walk to newton then take train but we scare not enough time to catch the last train...

bascially today i m not working but having fun by enjoying eating... till late at night see... haix gonna become a big fat lazy pig le... haha.... that nick is given by pat n ar de li ... haha

btw got one indonesia customer thought that me n ar de li are lesbitan... haha...pls even both of us got no one wan we will not become a lesbitan lol... pls... that is impossible... hehe:)

Tml i think i should not eat both dinner n lunch.... hor ar de li u oso... hehe:) u know y arh! Yeah i think i realli enjoy myself today with u guys...

haha...Ya pat u still onli we one drink so no worries still have chance wan lol... haha..

lala.. i think that all... i m too tired n full... i think i going to zzz.lele...haha...

Ya one last thing remember wad u promise me ar de li.... ok u know i know can le... haha...

2006-04-14T08:43:00.000-07:00

Today is good friday... Meet up with all my ex-class mate... We were same class since the day we stand in to pei cai...

We suppose to meet at 1245 at orchard mrt station... But as usual emily was late... She reach at 2 pm...lol... more than an hour late... topid her.. Then we went cine level 8 kbox to sing... from 2 to 5 pm lol... the service over there realli sux like hell... Still prefer toa poyah kbox... the serving over there is much much better than here lol... Have alot of fun inside kbox... We sing like hell... to high... when we sang the revolution, xing guang, superstar... all the high high song arh...

After that went to take neo print realli hard to get pauline to take neo print with us man... This is a very rare wan... Yes ger we must keep it nicely hor... whahaha... update with each other how have we been.. Charmaine n emily going ite... opening school on the 2nd of may... wish them luck.... i believe u guys can make it into poly... wan love u guys... U all must have confidence in ur self ok...After all this toking went shopping, went to taka guess! Guess wad? who i saw this time round... i saw hao meng... know him from the course... hehe.. happi to get to see him agree hehe...

time for photos:

2006-04-12T01:05:00.000-07:00

Some good news to share with my fellow hang tens best mate... Know wad our best lasting boss Knight chew he gonna gain his freedom on the 4 of june 2006 after 3 yrs of tortuning... feel so happi for him.. today me n sek lin went to visit him... he look so much happier than that day... count down for him he had 51 days to go excluding his off days n 2 more stock take to be done...

Some times i realli think that hang ten is much much better than hush puppies... Especially ppls around.... Those ppls working play apart... Ppls in hush puppies are so damn bloody selfish they onli think of themselves... They will nv share a thoughts for others... The more i wrk the more i get piss off... How i wish school reopen come quickly as i dont need to see their faces everyday... dont need to get tortune by them... they are so horrible, only think of themselves...the ppls over here is very different from hang ten... At least ppl in h10 will think of each other they will no b so selfish even thought they are malaysia...
I will definitely leave the compani.. but is not the right time yet... cos of someone n the paid i m holding there... they are just bias so much bias so that i cant realli stand them ani more... there are too mani unfair issues that have arise in this few days... too mani.... that is uncountable...

today went to collect my paid, i m realli shock to death when i saw the cheque... reali...i cant believe the amount... the amount is under estismate by me... the amount is so little u know... realli under mine expectation...After collecting my paid, went down to buy some cloths, n a pair of sandals from novo... ok lai... then went down to lucky plaza to enjoy pizza hut with sek lin... lalalala... we tok abt alot of thing in the past and rake out those joy n sadness we shared...
Mayb becos of too mani thing had happen that cos us to have some mani hatred n unhappiness... ok i realised something...........

Ok i send an email to peter choy regarding the brief on tues n i m excused... good... cos i have two appointment. one is on the morning with my families members n the other is with my dental doctor... to do n operation on my tooth.. stupid that cause me a bomb too... idoit tooth...

nono money! saved me... out of this... haix i m tired, exhausted, feel down emotionally... sad abt alot of thing... haix

dont bother abt me...

-btw happi belated bday to: yu ting n samantha...
-happi bday to jian lang...
-happi bday to jason... n lasty :
-happi bday to HMMM( u know it can liao)

2006-04-09T06:36:00.000-07:00

Piss off... everything around me is not right...

Simply just asked mine sis to shut up... i kanna get scolding is always like this. She just make some sound n i will be the one getting scolding... Asked urself is this fair... she cried i get scolding... is not that i dont dote on her... dont force me to hate her... is irrating... she cried she win... i alway the one kanna...

PISS OFF

2006-04-06T09:17:00.000-07:00

ok...

today went for course...Suppose to meet amy and mervin at somerset mrt control station at 845.. but end up mervin was late.. he overslept...lol

At time the course was fun, like those game: blow wind blow...blow where... It is real fun lol... have a great time.... In the class there was a gay lol.. realli a gay he is from baby guess.. The grp of ppls from baby guess are all damn proud lol... simply cant stand them... Some ppl under the same company as me from transmarco: xdous... they are sux too...

But lucky got amy lei... After course went to centrepoint... saw nicholas think he n patrick quarrel... dont know wad is happening nowaday! just got a new reshuttlement, things turn out to be nastly towards them...

Can i say that patrick change... he getting to demanding !

dont know y lai.. i can feel that nowaday he is different... haix... almost quarrel with him... lol... dont issit whose fault i tok nicely to u n u give me this attidute u know me la.. temper oso not that good wan.. how u treat me i will treat u like that la.. haix damn piss..

heard from amy yesterday, elthera cry after quarreling at ngree ann... lol... Haix ppls at ngree ann nowadays arh... like dont know wad wrong... thought of giving elthera a visit but nv saw her at hnn... so sad..

ppls over here(cant say exactly where it is la)...arh getting more n more selfish... they only think of themselves onli... U r a full timer... u get more pay then to those part timers... Where they can onli earn more during holidays... YYY u ppl over here dont understand the logics... can u ppl b more understandable..

Truely deeply say, over here a really cant find a good friends... I find that u ppls are very cunning... i dont know yyy...

Especially someone who tell me eventually i had enough part time staff already in the end i heard that she had just hired a few new part time staff.. wad is this... m i a kid... just so easy to be bluff...

sick

2006-04-05T10:23:00.000-07:00

I fall sick again... wad the hell... i m so sick man.... i lose my sound after eating the waffles yesterday...

Yesterday was fun....Was our class outing, yeah... but only 8 ppls turn out... haha... but we did enjoy ourself... Anyway, yemin was the lastest to turn out.. forever... omg...haha

We went to ps to buy movie ticket.... When chosing for the movie, i recieve one phone call from patrick... Ok we had our kpo chat... gossip abit with him... he is still so funni... Ok la... he promise to treat me bigbig call of drink after my course on thursday... :) when to level 5 for waffles at gelare... we keep changing sit... lol...

After movie, went down to heeren to shop... tim bought a jacket from 77 street and we went for dinner at cine food court...only liping, daniel, tim n shawn was eating while we take photo of ourselve to kill time lol.

Is neo print time, went to level 9 to take neo print... we have a hard time to asked the guys to join in...

2006-03-31T23:27:00.000-08:00

lalala...I clear my exams... yeah i feel so happi...

ok back to some comments on wrk...
1.) susan is transfer to j8... ( shit i wil b wrking with her 3 to4 days)hell like mad..
2.) richard at tm...ok la.. not that bad.. happi for him to b promoted to IC again..
3.) yesterday was fun wrking with esther... she so funni oso dont like s...haha cant say...
4.)haha... tml and sunday at HTM... sunday wrking with jian lang... heard he is a fun guy.. let see ok.. haha :)

i think that all.. my worry turn to be happi :)... cheers for me okie.. thanks !!!!!!!!!!!

yeah... love u guys...

last but not the least thanks lyn for helping me...
thanks all my donkey 2,4,5 for ur encouragement... muck...
bye bye going off to zzz le...

lalala

2006-03-28T13:20:00.000-08:00

yo i m back...
finally today is my off day... after working for four days straight full shift... N know wad i just woke up from my bed... enjoying my off day...but going out soon... going to.... haha y should i tell u!!!!!!! ya i m bed... hehe:) joking lala...

ok... fine... i m so tired.... tired... tml have stock take lol... wad the hell must reach there at 9 am lol... n the stock take will end at 2 pm... lol...")

lalala...

got my annual dinner n dance pic.. l realli like it lol...

yeah they are audrey, heline, elthea n me...

yeah i m the youngest among them... lalala... they rock... annual dinner n dance was organise at the Rav pub.. that night is free flow... n most of them was drunk n damn high... especially thomas... lalalala... love u guys man...

we didnt realli take pic, cos my phone low bat that night, elthea camera spoil haix... so onli audrey can wrk... we will too busy eating, critizing ppls, laughing n those ren yao and praying to win some goods lucky draw prices... lalal...

tired... going out soon byebye!!!

2006-03-27T00:55:00.000-08:00

go.. time to update my blog...

wad to say about work... is time for me to vent my anger...
ok...

first sat should have 3 person but end up onli me n micheal working... where is mr patrick la??? die le lol... go shopping with principle lol so good not like me haiz... suffer over there.. haix.. I suppose to wrk from 12 to 8 wan lol.. make me come wrk full shift ... he win liao... always like this...nvm yao gan zai xian de fen shan lor...

then on sunday, kanna bully by alan lol.. he is funni but damn cunning... got to know sometinh big... know wad he is 26 this yr... wow.. can believe cos he dont look like ... :) lol... haha
he say i look abit tood with my fringe like this.. he prefer my old fringe ... he is so lucky....he won a digital camera that is worth 599 lol during dnd lol... on the sunday night he was thinking whelther he going.... anot... ( uncle told me wan cos he dun have a outfit to go)... so uncle told him to go n make up like a trishaw man lol...

i think those who go on that night got win a small gift back ba... me, audrey, thomas, heline, micheal, jian lang, donanath, diana, susan, stephin... lol
haha.. enjoy man that night...

2006-03-24T23:27:00.000-08:00

Haix.. a bit piss off with patrick... always like this wan lol.. last min then tell me to wrk full for him... bloody helll... make me cancel my morning appointment.. damn... toopid.... I hate last minute to inform me wan lai... then i have to cancel my appointment always like this... Not the first time le lol...

ARH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I m so pissed with everything around me... INcluding someone pls go aways dont disturb me lai... arh... saw him today... Dont know wad to say! i m so frustrated... pls dont make me cancel my appointment last min again can anot..

went to orchard just now... after school...
First get down to ngree ann, saw diana tok to her .... She told me that ngree ann ppl is devil... haha.. derrick say i m susan nieces whahah...

lololol... boring... then went down to lucky plaza to visit knight... can see that he is not happi... sad orchard emerald closing down cos of increase in rental... sad bad... haix i dun know la..

sek lin is in a bad mood... i must help her look for a house she need to move out of yishun asap... i felt so sorri n bad... i had not visit her for such a long time...i always find some reasonable excuse not to visit her... my excuse is always busy, schooling n wrking.. i know she is vex.... y did i do this to her... she is always so kind n nice to me ... sorry sek lin... i promise to be by ur side more often... sorri... wad ever i promise u today i will try my best to help u...

frustrated... dont bother n disturb me....

sick

2006-03-23T20:00:00.000-08:00

god i m back home from tpy... and o think i m down with flu... shit i m sick... got to see doctor le... haix even company give me the hong bao oso not enough for me to use man... no matter how big the red packet is lol... lalalalalalala

eye pain

2006-03-23T03:20:00.000-08:00

my eye is damn red n damn painful.. i think is becos i cant wear the lens then i go n wear lens or my company dnd that night... Some more wear till late that night lol..

The pain is killing me lol.. very pain lol.. hurt.. Think going to see doctor on sat morning or friday night.. ba... but tml meeting sek lin at centrepoint for dinner la... arh.... save me the pain is killing me... arh.......hardly can open my eyes...

2006-03-23T00:52:00.000-08:00

lalalalalalalalala... boring plus stress up with everything... abit screw up at times ... but i m happi to have some good friends beside me.. yeah...

I miss mine donkey friends... they are donkey 2 =belinda tan, donkey 4= koh shan rong, donkey 5= eslyn ong, donkey 6 = foo yemin ... whahaha.. sorri cant meet u guys next week.. cos onli one day off, due to the annual by colour by side stock take... but i will miss u guys.. lot... muck... donkey friend...

2006-03-22T04:57:00.000-08:00

Working life sux!!! But happi to meet some part timer... they are cool man hehe:)...

Ling li are u back to sing.. MIss u lai...

Wanna meet u asap...

whahaha

Annual dinner night...

2006-03-21T12:56:00.000-08:00

last night was a great day, it was our compay dinner n dance... HOo... All in shang hai tai tai costume... Is so beautiful...

onli got one ger from xdous... she simply sux... her pant drop off lol.. n we saw her g string... she even tell the host is ok is just onli g string... my goodness... whahaha... get to know more part timers over there... a bit sad for thomas, he was drunk n kanna get sabo... by derrick... thomas got on to the stage n he had to become a lady with the help of us... so sad ... he simply too high haha...

patrick got a love bite on his neck, and the host happen to see n make him so embrassed hehe... Too bad no chance to laugh at him cos too far away n i m lazy to get there lol hehe..

The lucky draw price was attractive but, eventually i didnot walk away with them... I wanted the ipod nano, the uzap, the camera n the portable dvd player... sad that i didnt walk away with ani of it.. But in the end i walk away with a hong bao... that hong bao is damn big lol. no joking... hehe.. is confidentation... hehe...

Went home with helien, audrey n jimmy they are funny man... Jimmy wanted to change all his price with us to the hong bao... but too bad arh hehe...

that cool man... lalala... no photo yets no one send me sad... haha
gtg byebye

2006-03-18T08:44:00.000-08:00

Got my new pair of shoes from company... Thanks man!!! Hope the policy will come true!! hehe...

i cant realli drink as u guys know, and i m drunk cos of u... stupid but i enjoy it thanks man ...
Ok!! just know the reshuttlement... Is realli like bloody hell man....

Susan lim is TRANSFER TO HJ8... Bloody.. All ur fault patrick.... omg... save me out of this man.. The new shuttlment realli sux man.. Wad to do nthing... haix

OK yest morning went to see a doc... Doc said my eye internally swollen cant wear lens for a few days... Wad the helll...lol....

then went down tot outram, to see my GOOD dental to make appointment for stupid tooth problem... Haix...

Sorri sek lin, cant meet u this few weeks busy!! i promise to meet u, lingli n ben or april the first week ok...

wad to do... got alot of things crash!!!

Wait saved me who got shang hai dress to lent me on monday... mayb ani chi pao... need it on monday... toopid patrick n esther u 2 bluff me like a idoits.. U too watch out ... where is my paid going to advise... i want u guys to increase my paid ... lol toopid...

love wrking with patrick ... !!! Nordiana!! see this sms me.. how are u? u ok anot in ngree ann... i heard alot of things... must tell me if u not happi lai... dont be sad ok... u got a cert not like them, u can get ani retail job easily stay happy n cute ok...

hey kelvin remember that day we ate the durian outside tpy 1 with kiat meng n chris which is sun yun last day in hang ten... i miss that day lot... we even make her eat but she refuse remember...

love u muck!!
that all byebye!!

tired i neeed to zzz le...

Under pressure

2006-03-16T17:06:00.000-08:00

Yes i m back to blog again..

FIrst, i m stress... rather stress... under alot of pressure...

Second, i turn cold blood... whahaha...

that all ba! This is the feeling have for this few days!!! hehe...

By colour by size stock take coming... Omg... is killing me... is just on 31/03/2006 bloody hell... that is so nonsense...

Yeah tml working with patrick alone onli... That is good.. hehe:) At least i can enjoy for one or two days...

Monday is company annual dinner... I really backside itchy, go n sign up... Now i dont feel like going... If i dont go must pay $50... haix toopid me...

2006-03-15T13:03:00.000-08:00

No matter how strong u are, i believe that u will still shed a drop of tear...
No matter how cold blooded, u are, i still believe that one fine day u will come back to me...
No matter how rebellious u are, i still believe that u will turn over a new leave one fine day.
No matter how much i miss u, i will not show it on my face but i will wait for u in silences...
No matter how much thing had happen to us i will still accept the facts that u r no longer there for me...

The day u left us, i shed a drop of tears in silences just because the departure of u n i had to face the fact that u r gone n i lost a good guy friends like u...
I m the strongest among them, n that was the first time they saw me shedding mine tears in front of them just becos of u...
U brought us happiness, jokes, taught me how to be lame..
U taught me to how to keep mine promises to...
U advise me not to be rebellious when i m in my yrs2...
U r the one that change me to be come more mature...
The promise that i gave u wil always be a promise, i wil nv break it...
I will nv forget u for my life time, cos u r the one that change me n been such a good friends to me...
I will always remember what u told me b4 u left us...

Because of u, i realli get back to the correct path n mix the correct friends...
Because of u, i shed my first drop of tear infront of them...
Because of u, i know wad is keeping a promise...

Times realli flies, 2 yrs gone... U left the world 2 yrs le... Honoso toshiakia, we will always remember u cos u realli bought us alot of joy n happiness... von now is doing fine, but relation is still as bad a that time...I will help u take care of her, i will nv let her do something that wil harm her... cos that is the promise i gave u...

U r a great friends i know...U are always mine friends...
Cancer took his life went he will in sec3... i saw how he fight with the sickness, realli feel sad for
him... He is jut onli 16 yrs old at tat time... If he is still with us, he will be in poly or in army...

i will always stay strong just like u did.... cos i simply like ur spirit...

love u n always remember u akia...

2006-03-14T23:27:00.000-08:00

i seriously lost her... I start to loss her since the day i left hang ten...How did this happen to us... knight once say that we will his best helper... i m his right hand n u are his left hand... he cant loss anyone of us... but in the end he lost both of us... i decided to leave hang ten n u decided to go imm n help him.. n we encourage u... Did i make the wrong move cos, once u went over, i realised that we have become stranger.. U dont share ur secret with me anymore.. N u dont tell me wad happen to u n ur bf... u didnt intro me hu he is lol... yyy did tis happen to us... yyyy...i m realli disappointed n sad... can u tell me y this had happen to us... did i make the wrong move to let u go over tomo area... ya i know... haix i dun no lai... if u carry on like this i think, we will realli become strange veri soon.. n can i say that u had become a stranger to me le... But i m realli grateful, when i realli need help u helped me... but wad happen... to u n me...

if u read this blog entry, pls think of me n re contact me pls.... i dun wan us to be come a stranger....

2006-03-14T11:00:00.000-08:00

This few days, i have been suffering from tooth ache n eye pain when ever i wear my lens tupid... dont yyy... change a new pair of new lens still like this...can throw away lela...

haix dont knw... can kill myself le lol.. i wan to fly, fly as high as possible n get of this cruel world. how i wish i can get into a simple world that have no worries, no sadness, no sorrow where it is full of happiness n innocent ppls... that all..

lalala... mood still very unsteadable... dont know why... mayb kelvin is right, i should not think so much n not mentioning her.. no one no how hurt i feel... sad.. shoould stop here... bye bye good nite...

2006-03-14T00:55:00.000-08:00

i m just suprise in alot of thing... The first one is: richard called me n tell me that i will get one pair of free shoes from hush puppies.. but the price cant more than 130 buts...

ok, i thought this benefit is only for those confirm full timer staff but end up i oso got whahaha
came at the right time ba.. cos i m broke to purchase a new pair of working shoes... cos my shoes spoiling...

lalala... i think they are using this just to stop ppl leaving the compani...

shit a few more days annual dinner night will be here... diao i should promise that i will be going... toopid now if i dont go have to pay 50 butts... damn xxx lol... haix... butt itchy..

lalalalal tired going off too zzz le good night

STRESSS and pressure...

2006-03-13T05:04:00.000-08:00

I m so stress, i m under alot of pressure where no one know about it... how?

nthing much.. noone know wad actually happen...
things troubling me:

- i m just too tired of working at huh puppies...
- hate to work with that ah pei...
- friend around me driving me nuts...
- friend change just because she got a new relationship...
- friend stop contacting one another once we leave the company...
- friend taking granted...
- friend been ungrateful..
- study troubling me...
- once a good friends, becomin a stranger cos of her relationship...

eventually i m realli sad about this... yyy??? is this happening between us... We will once a good bubby in.... And we will once praise by him... Usually we will chat over the phone until late at night... around 4 plus... Even we dun have topic we will find alot of thing to crap and chat... Remember mine first day of work, get to know u we exchange our phone no.. the second day we u send me a cute morning msg... YY? have this happen to us... Times flies, we just didnt get to meet each other for a few month onli n u have becum like this... hai i dun no lai... i m not the onli one who say u have change n become ungrateful to us... i just dunno, i gonna be crazy sooner or later... I called u, u dun pick up nvm, i sms u, u oso dun reply me... YYYYYYY???? is this happening to us... Alot of ppl know that we are the best bubbies in the tpy... everyone know... but y did this happen to us... Becos... i dunno.. YYY u stop contacting us... yyyyyy??? pls contact us can....

2006-03-10T00:56:00.000-08:00

my blog is getting rusty soon..

BAck to mine blog!!!!!!!!....

First trif dog when missing for days... haha:) she is sad but he is happi.. whahaha... Sad for her she love her cute doggies man...

Today when to collect my paid...Paid is really ALOT...whahahah... cos last mth i onli work one day onli at habour front.. :( wad to do... nth but to hope that i can clear all my debts asap... Hate to get down to great world no matter work or shopping... Becos there is no direct bus lol... when i reach there jimmy went for his lunch leaving thomas onli... Thomas had a stomach ache n he cant stand ani more so asked me to stand by for awhile so he can get to the loo.

Ok after that had lunch with mine group of old peician... long long time nv get to see them... as usual i n him nv tok after the incident... so wad is not my fault at all.. so i will not bother to tok to u first.. if i m not at fault.. hehe:) tt is me... haha

get to know how their life now... abit sad.. some have to go ite n some cant get into the poly... have to retake again... charmaine going inot bishan ite, emily going into si mei ite, xl cant get a place in poly... haix... abit sad for them... hear that he is changing course cos he dont like that course... Not my problem aniway... alot of have changes.. in the sense that, some nice sweet ger turn to a butch n les... wad a waste... n YYY??? life is getting out of control????

After that we went window shopping... a usual... I still cant get Miss pauline... my dear friends...
i realli miss u.. i got two yrs never get to see u le... yyyy???? u MIA again...

Hear from donkey 2 that result will be out tml.. oh no!!!!!!!! how i m so afraid... will i pass... let cross my fingers n wish me luck ok...

Ling li, ben, seklin seriously i miss u guys... Confirm i will b free on the 3 rd week of march...

Friday 10/03/2006, all ex- hang ten member will be having a gathering... I m not going cos i dont realli know them... cos mostly come from imm... from tomo area not knight or sameul area... so me n ling li is not going... we dun wan to be extra... hehe :) JOKING.... the feeling will be very weird... lol... kelvin was like asking me go cos he will be asking sun yun there... i know the gathering will be very rare n is a good oppurtunties to meet up.. but too bad i will be working n the place is just too far...

ok lasty!!!!!!!!! hey donkey friends ==glitters i miss u guys... muck....wish u guys luck for ur result ok... ALl the best muck...

2006-03-02T08:18:00.000-08:00

I m so tired... horrible tired... Sales for hush puppies is so bad... bad until nothing to say...lol...

time over there are hard to pass...

know wad i did for today.. the entire day at hush puppies... Drawing lines on the name card of hush puppies lol...Then lucky got patrick to tok to me n keep me compani lol... lalalala....Got one bad news, diana is leaving us... SHe is leaving the family... sad for her... she cant get along with derrick... As predicted, when things gone by everydays.. more conflicts will occurs...

Working ith esther is not that bad lol..compare to wrking with richard can kill me man... He dont know how to tok wan lol.. To my surprise, i accidentally saw the part timer feed back comments from all the second in charge in the memo files... the comments for me not that bad onli say i talkative and a bit lazy haha... agree... lol... Poor adeline i think she gt lots of comments( negative ) wan... She sure will get scolding wan lol... sad for her lai...

.... nothing but i m tired....

i cant get pauline.... Hu can help me contact pauline for me ... Pauline where are u ???? looking for u urgently... see this pls called me asap... Abt the trip with charmaine...

Ya... i cant go hong kong le... worked load dont allow... is my fault .... sorry guys.....

sun tanning

2006-03-01T00:30:00.000-08:00

yeah....

ok should tok abit abt monday... Went down to orchard, first to pay some installment for the hitachi car... realli toopid hitachi management... they change their operation menu did nt even inform me n my parents... toopid right... After that went shop around n meet up my auntie... She bought me a set of nail equipments for me and 2 bottles of nail polish from face shop...

OK... fine let tok about today... KNow wad... Belinda went swimming n sun tanning with us u know anot.. that is very unbelievable right... omg.... Just cant believe it!!!!!!!!! We was almost 1hr late upon the meeting time.......Went sun tanning downstair her house la... wad the hell, how i tan i still willnt get black lol... toopid right...lalalala...

tml working le... Why nv put me at the event at suntec on 11 / 12 wan... Nvm la... i dont like to work in suntec oso... so forget it haha.... lalalala... Still happi working at j8 n with patrick lol... lol... haix tml at j8 but ..... working with esther ... abit sian going to bore to death...lalalala !!!

Wad to do... need money....

ON 10 march there will be a bbq gathering for all ex hang ten staff. An the bbq gathering will be organised at bukit batok lol... i cant attend cos on that day i will be working till full lol.. indeed la... i realli miss soon y, joseph, sun yun, triffeny, sek lin, ling li, ben, yock yee, knight, samuel and mani more lol... whahahaha... I think i will organised the tpy gathering that is onli for knight area people can come n we can oso include samuel n kelvin ba... PLs i dont think i will be asking sour plum, chris n fat jason... i just simply dont like them... Cos of them.... i just cant forget... Becos of them... !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!..................alot of unhappy things happen lol...

2006-02-26T21:28:00.000-08:00

lalala!

today... busy day !!!!!!! y?

When bugis to meet up auntie... Then go walk round round lol... Then to wistma... then to ngree ann then to lucky plaza then to alot of place lai.., Until i so tired...

Then when to granny's house.... Aunties they all playing majong, then she asked me to help her play cos she need to help up in cooking.... so play lol as i got nthing to do n i dont need to play ani lose wad... hahaha... long time nv play majong... le....

so fun man... shall play majong with them again....

i going to bore to death sooner or later.... in debts ... need to clear them once i get my pay for next month...

tml going to town again, to clear some debts off... first then......hai... toopid right... nothing better to do...

2006-02-25T06:21:00.000-08:00

haix....

forgot my msn password... sianx... so i reset up another account...

new email account is Yuzhen_shed@hotmail.com....

Today, finally i clear my room is realli in a big mess... thing that are suppose to wash i wash le.. All my cloths are washed, all my house chore i had finally finish n clear... yeah..... ONe last thing is i haven wash my working bag... my sling bag... arh ... that sting....lol

lolololol....

nthing to do... going to bore to death sooner or later ... hehe:)

2006-02-24T06:12:00.000-08:00

Lalala...finally got my blogskins change...

Today is the final paper le... Cmath 2 ... the paper can kill...

lalala... confirm with michael..that i will be going for the annual dnd... le... If not patrick will kill me ... lalal...

boring... nthing to do...

2006-02-22T21:00:00.000-08:00

lalala...

Left with one paper to go... Yeah... n i will have all my freedom back will be school break... Wad will i do in the holidays... Yes nth but work to clear all my debts... Yes sorri hui min for owing u..

I really very hand tight lol... how... i think i need any other jobs lol.. they gave me my schedule... 19 days working out of 31 days... that means that i will rot at home for 1/2 a mth... Ya!!! out of the 19 days i have to work at bishan with the both richard n esther.... Diana saved me pls....i need another part time job... save me out of this... Ya another big thing 20 march is the annual dinner for hush puppies... Should i go??? I dont realli know those guys out there... then the theme for that night is abt shanghai tai tai and shao ye... lalala... should i go... i dont know lei... dont bother to think oso...

yes... tml have to study for math lol...

YYYY?????? Is life so miserable at times... i just dont understand lol... can ani one tell me. haix..

lots of feeling... :(..... dont lalalalalalal

Yeah

2006-02-20T04:40:00.000-08:00

Hai...

Exams are almost done... le... haha...

How? i dont know lei...
IISo... i think can lai... But oopg hor... haix... Things that i know i know lai, things that i dont know means i realli dont know lol.. hehe.. half half ba... haha... i think i feel lesser stress le ba... ...

lalalala.. i feel more calm down le dont care abt my blog on 18 feb they r just so irrating... haha.. lalalala...... hehe :)

babababa... :)

hehehe....

i cant wait for the day the exams end... so i can have my whole full freedom again...

piss

2006-02-18T09:54:00.000-08:00

Let me say this again and is the last time i going to say it...

I M THE NOT THE ONE.... JOIE CHEO CHANG WEI, u listen properly i dont owe u anything... I m not the Yuzhen u know since sec 1 n 2... I change in these fews year...

U KNOW ME WELL I M NOT A PERSON THAT WILL HARM OR EVEN BETRAY MY FRIENDS... THAT IS NOT ME .....U SHOULD KNOW IT COS HOW WE KANNA GET CAUGHT WITH YVONNE N HOW I HELP YVONNE TO COVER UP.... N DUE TO THAT I ALMOST KANNA GOT EXPEL.. U ARE INSIDE WITH ME N U WITNESS THAT TOO....

HOW MANY TIME MUST I SAID IT ; I NV DID THAT... I JUST WAN TO HELP THEM CLEAR THEIR MISUNDERSTANDING ONLI... IF U THINK U N EMILY ARE ONLY THE VICTIMS IN THIS WHOLE INCIDENT FINE...LET ME TELL U THAT U ARE VERY WRONG... I THINK I GET THE MOST HURT, COS I LOST 2 GOOD LISTERNER N GOOD UNDERSTANDING FRIEND AT THE SAME TIME....N U LET ME SEE CLEARLY HOW MUCH U UNDERSTAND ME..... LISTEN CAREFULLY I WIL NOT DO ANYTHING TO HARM OR BETRAY MY FRIENDS...BECAUSE TO ME FRIENDS ARE VERY IMPT COMPARE TO MYSELF....

THEN AS FOR EMILY; LET ME TELL U OFF... I DONT NEED U TO GIVE ME A CHANCE TO EXPLAIN MYSELF... IF U STILL WAN TO TAKE IT THAT I M THE ONE THEN FINE ..... PLS STOP TELLING EVERYONE THAT U GIVE ME A CHANCE TO EXPLAIN MYSELF PLS... WTF IS THIS... DURING THAT TIME I MY TRYING TO SAVE OUR FRIENDSHIP... I JUST DONT KNOW HOW TO DESCRIBLE U... I M NOT BEEN PETTY OR WAD ... IS JUST NOT FAIR FOR ME ... I M JUST TRYING TO VOICE OUT... I DONT WANT TO LET ALL THIS NONSENSE KEPT INSIDE ME ANYMORE... IS THE ART STUDENTS WHO STARTED TO BE PROUD WITH IT FIRST.. WE THE FnN STUDENTS ARE THE MOST INNOCENT WAN LOL... IS THE ART N DnT STUDNET STARTED TO FIGHT FIRST LOL... DAMN.... STOP PUSHING THE BLAME ANYMORE TO ME N THE REST OF THE FnN STUDENTS......IS DAMN NOT FAIR LOL... I DONT WISH TO LISTEN ANYMORE... U N JOIE ARE NOT THE REAL VICTIM... PLS DONT SAY TILL U TWO ARE SO PARTHEIC OK... DAMN... IT ... I DONT WANT ALL THIS NONSENSE TO B AROUND ME AGAIN... I DONT GIVE A DAMN ABT IT ...

COS U PPLS ARE REALLY DAMN CHILDISH N IRRATING... COS TO ME, THIS IS NO LONGER SIGNIFICANT ANY MORE....

lalalala..... stress, disappointed, irrated, whirl, weird, impatient, frustrated.. everything is not right for me.. especially my mood........ hur.... i dont wan to thing any more... mood swing ba dont know la...

Exhausted ....

2006-02-16T04:03:00.000-08:00

I m realli exhausted about everything in my life...

I think i need to get out of singapore to relax... Yes i want to go hong kong with u guys... U guys... Pls dont leave me alone in spore for 9 months agains hor...

Today is 16 feb... Valentine day had past for 2 days... Went to m1 shop on valentines day to change my stupid student plan that is so expensive.. Kind of piss off with those people that helped me in this contact last year... Dont know wad is in their head...Make me pay for so XXX lol... Nw i got 1000 sms free and 3 outgoing free to my friends...More reasonable with the 100o sms free lor...

Yes, valentine i was all alone hehe i dont mind ... I still prefer begin single cos i can have all da freedom i yearn for... haha. lalala and i m very sure that i have no feeling towards him...

Yesterday went back to sch for cmath2 revision ... And also exchange of gift between glitters... haha.. Then went to TM to meet derrick, while rong went to bel' house first... Ya thank derrick for ur rose hehe and drive me to bel house... Ya... derrick so funni man eventually the rose is to be given to susan only but he dare not give directly so he bought 2. One for me n one for susan haha... Thanks derrick... hehe

O ya xiao su take care of urself ok... DOnt think too much le...She nearly drunk yest night...

No mood to study hehe... But i still have to return to the books... Haix mugging again... bye...

lalalalalala... Boring ...

2006-02-16T01:29:00.000-08:00

I feel like laughing out loudly as loud as possible...

Y is life so unpredictable... Can ani one tell me ... YYYYYYYY??????

i dont want to think ani more ... Not in the right mood for everything ... I wan to laugh all i can jusst to destress myself... Who can make me laugh or even entertain me ... HU???? I dont know...

Sudden very emotion, i wan back all my lost contact friends.... Where can i find them... I have not seen them since the day they left serangoon, zhonghua and peicai... Where are u guys... Pls come back to me...Especially SEAH XINNI,MEI FENG AND GOU XIANG

Haix i think i gonna be crazy soon..... Realli... Things are pressing on me ....

How n hu can save me out....

Pls save me ....i meant it...

Valentine day

2006-02-14T12:24:00.000-08:00

Lalala...

Friendster is giving me problem got problem in uploading those formal pic man... Can onli upload a few of them onli..trying it later ba hehe...

ok....Sad over a few things ba... closing down of habour front n some of my friends that have no where to go after o levels...

Ok... But still rather ok lai my mood... Hurt my own foot cos of patrick lol... hehe... Help him to pack those stock yesterday morning n kanna my own feet.. Not that bad la...

Hehe...

The time past very fast.... When april reached, i will be in year 2 that means that i will left onli one yr in poly life...Ya... n will be out to the society... Haix in this one yr get to know new friends got good n bad... haha good more than bad la... hee.. Dont y so many emotions feeling today... haha mayb is valentine day ba...

Haha...

Anyway Happy Valentines Day to everyone n love u guys man... Muck... ending here... More updates will come...hehe

Closing down of habour front centre...

2006-02-12T08:31:00.000-08:00

Today is my last day of work for the moment.. till end of exams... i will be back...

Today mark an memorable day for me, patrick n kenny.. cos is the last day of harbouf front centre... IS offically close down.. Notice are up they will cease the operation on 13/ 02 /2006.. No more hush puppies in hfc... Eventually i miss the place realli... Especially the other people in the other shops ... They are just so funni n friendly.... Today is the last day of chinese new year and is oso chinese valentine... Ya... lalala... End work at abt 11.05, help them to pack all the stock into the store room n all this stuff... Reallli love working with patrick, he know how to take care of his worker's wellfare ba compare to kenny... hehe... He kept suaning me n Mr W... but is not true loll... Then i also suan him with the old susan (chua) at suntec... is just so funni... lalala...

lalala... See these are the formal pic taken during iiso presentation:

Congrat

2006-02-11T06:37:00.000-08:00

Yesterday, is 10 of feb it marked an impt date for all the o level students n me... Haha... Y... O level result release..

Whenever the release of result, it will always bring people with sadness n joke. Yest i got a lot of emotions... confused, happy, sad, excited....... Sad for those friends of mine who had funk their exams for the second time... Happy cos i finally make it le... for my english o level exam.. Felt abit honour n great cos i finally make it. Yes.. hehe. For those friends of mine who cant make it, the only thing i can say is thing properly b4 u guys made the decision for ur future. Bu yao yi qi de qi dong er rang zhi qi shi qiu ji hui.

Busy... Busy... n Finally is all over... Yesterday is the last day of sch and is our formal presentation for these sem. Whahaha... lalala... Rong n me accompany bel to bugis to get her blazar... haha...So funni n so last min lol... After our presentation, we went to jack place to have dinner... Daniel and tim(our sisters) plus glitters.. hehehe... Went shopping around century square... Then we came to a conclusion to exchange present between us(glitters)... lalala...

lets tok abt abit of Hush puppies...

I was surprise... very surprise... yes... cos i realli got a very big ang bao from hush puppies... 40 but from them... that is rather very big compare to hang ten.. Cos i ever received onli 5 dollars from them for kai gong hong bao.. lol.. that is realli pathetic. You can see how big the differences are lol... Y? hang ten is like this... As for ling li she more pathetic got 2 dollars from that hang ten... Then now pepper lunch gave her 40 but lol..Happi for her....Both of us found a good job cos time are very flexible for us compare to hang ten.

lalala!!!!!!!! today went out with miss ling li.. damn funni... went to tpy de kbox to sing... sang from 2 to 4.30... haha.. funni......Then went to get my present for my glitters then get one for her to... then went home... I want to watch the seasons of love.... A very touching n sad love story... Too bad dont get to watch that today...
lalalalala....

Finally, this term is ending soons... Exams are coming, they are just around the corner... lalala!!!
One yrs of poly life just pass like this... Is damn so fast... realli enjoy it...

Gulity

2006-02-01T09:25:00.000-08:00

Issit me? that cause her like this?Am i to blame?

I really feel gulity, wad if she really become siao.... i reali dun no how...how.. i m so scare ... m i to blame for not helping her? i dunno... y did she became like this... stress or wad...

i m so scare.. all my mood gone... no mood in going anywhere... including school...

last night, my dad, uncles and nephew came to my house wanna bring her go to tan tock seng but she insisted of not going.. then no choice... lol... bring her to the clinics at hougang.. then the doctor asked my dad they all to send her to the woodbridge to see doctor... her condition was rather bad... she laught and cry at the same time... y did she laught n cry at the same time...

rather scare.... now the time is 1.55am she is still in the woodbrigde center... haven get to see a doctor...

Am i realli the one that cause her to be come like this??? Y? did she suddenly become like this over stress... or? i dunno...

I try to help her reformat her com but i realli cant do it ... there was so mani disc for dell... i dont know which one is meant for which one... i realli feel so gulity.... i think partionally is my fault... haix i dont know.. lai ...just leave it... i even care to bother abt it... haix...

sad..............

worry..........

gulity............

sorry..............

happi new year

2006-01-31T08:12:00.000-08:00

Today, is the third day of chinese year.. How was it like for the past two day of chinese new year. I can said there was fun n there was boringness.... Fun is always at my mother's side compare to father's side...At least mum side will give u ang bao n know that u r always there.. Not like Father's side people saw u treat u nth... so.... dont even bother to give us ang bao. No manners ... is not i really wan ur red packet.. Ur red packet mean nth to me... Inside is just onli 4 dollar onli... U think very big issit ... Do u know wad is li shan wang lai... duh.. Hate to go there.. Is ok now still new year i should not whine or nag... Is not the first time le lol.. So wad if u r poor... u shit got to give cos we did gave ur kids ok...U listen carefully: I dont want ur ang bao....

Ok, today went for work... Abit sian cos 3rd day of new yr... I promised patrick le cant dont go n wrk lol... he will get scolded by susan de lol... haix.. So went to habour front.. Sad to say so... habour front is closing down soon.... So there is no more hush puppie at habour front le ... So kan dong cos patrick treat us KFC.. lol.. I told him i on a diet then he bought me salad n asked me to eat a drumstick hehe. ok lai not that bad...He is just so funni asked me to bring two orange to give kenny tml.. just for ang bao..

ok lai.. den telll me lots of stupid things made my gossip up to date haha... now they like to gosip abt me oso with that.... ... all his fault call me wad that siao ger lai.. o m tian... after that nick came out of his mouth n got into patrick's ear... the rumours fly very n damn fast lol.... Then esther called me n asked me... called from ngree ann n great world.... duh right... hiax ok lai ... but is not true.. they just like to play n fool around... as they got no source of entertainment. hehe.....

gt to go... should update more abt new year again... 11 more day new yr will end... ya

2006-01-28T06:34:00.000-08:00

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR TO EVERYONE OF U..

WISH U GUYS ALL THE BEST IN THE BRAND NEW DOGGIES YEAR...

STRESSS

2006-01-22T07:30:00.000-08:00

I just dont know why? I m so pissed with everyone surrounding me n i get irrated easily... Even though i got control.. but.......

Mayb i m just stress and i like to hide my emotion in front of everyone...Yes, i laugh and joke no matter i m happi or i m sad so no one will know how i feel... i like to keep everything to myself. At times i realli hate myself... Becos i just want to act that i m strong in front of my friends but i m not... I had found out that I can no longer act le... I feel like crying my i just cant shed a tear out from my eyes. I thinking i going to burst alreadi... Things are just not on my side... Simply dont understand y... Frusturated at times...

I realli need a very good and caring person at my side no matter is a guy/ ger... I need a listener to listen to my complains... I gonna be crazy soon..

I must thanks mervin to entertain me in the whole day of work despite he is so tired.. He realli make me happy n abit destress... Cos he tell me abt he n amy.. hehe.. Finaly he told me.. Abit sad to leave great world.. today is my last day of work in great world for this month.. good thing, is very far from my house.. no direct bus / train lol then always late for wrk then had to hire a cab... bad thing: gonna leave mervin n thomas... haha i realli love working with u guys.. U are totally different as that jimmy... U guys give a feeling of tpy... realli... crap and tok abt dirty joke n i u make me dont feel lonely...haha... thanks people n hope i will wrk with u guys again soon.. muck... hey Mervin herby wish u good luck with amy haha... Must update me ok...

Stupid... No mood... I was once hurt again....

2006-01-20T04:37:00.000-08:00

Why issit always like this?
Why i always have to do something i dont lik?
Why am i force to leave something when i dont wish too?
Examples:
> forced to leave hang ten...
> forced to left him...
> forced to do this n do that ....
> forced to face all this stress...
> forced to face all this shit that i have...
> forced to forget him...
Why?

Today... something bad n big happen to me... Is alway like that.. i dont know y... Last few days, i just told my frenx that i had totally forget abt him..unless i saw him again...

Eventually this morning i woke up quite early but becos of a called, it make me dont feel like wake up and come to school...

The called realli stund me... He called me in the morning today... He was like telling me: "zhen, i just broke off with miss F..." then i was like so, is realli none of my business ma... Y should u tell me n t was like in the early morning... Yes, true enough i admitted that i cant forget u in the past but i did try... He told me, he dont feel like leaving me wan.. He tried to explain to me.. But all these are just too late... I dont feel like listening as it really hurt me alot. I dont wan all this thing to be back inside my brain again.. I wan all these thing to get out of my brain once n for all... Is all just too late le... After 2 yrs n after the relationship with her, now then u tell me u want to save our relationship.. isnt it too late n abit to bull shit mai...And u can simply go n die... I dont want to know n dont want see wad is going on.. Yes i agree, i wanted u back to my side that time but not NOW... U realli make me so disappointed, spoil my mood and once again u hurt me .... I Simply i HATE U... After the tok, my mood is realli bad...............

I dont want all this shit... I just wan peace... I m realli very stress and emotionally down....I simply cant stand it anymore... I had enough.... enough of all this nonsense..

I put all this emotion aside and went to school. i know i had to control my emotion even i realli feel down... I should not bring my saddness to other people happiness... I should not spoil their mood... So i bring my smile along....

I suddenly lost my control... And i started to get irrated... Everything is not right for me... i just dont know y...

I have no mood for my lesson today.. I m so gone today...Not in the right mood to study...
Stress....

Wow

2006-01-19T04:42:00.000-08:00

Wow... So interesting...

I lost my spect... no spect for me shit.. i Dont know where l throw my spect to lol... Shit...Dont at which part of mine house.. Isnt it interesting... ya this is wad i think so...i lazy to find lol.. whahaha...

Today is the firt day of open house for tp... My friends suppose to meet me at int school but he nv come lol.. is ok... he went biz... even if he is here i oso have no time to entertain him lol.. hehe...

Yesterday, i so clumsy lol.. fall into a small drain n the cut on my leg was quite deep lol.. haix sad...painfully...

Got 4 layer lesson today, my dear good friend arh Ms belinda tan ah was late n she nv come for school lol.. that was interesting.. When i called her she still at home lol... good right... whahaha.. ok lai..

then when to do our swimland digram with sruthy at library... AFter that went back to int sch to start doing the oopg project... stressful arh...

Now stil have to do iiso reflection... I will update more...lalala...

Nowadays kid are damn toopid lol... Teaching them can realli kill...

[[***Yuzhen***]]

Saw jia xiong

8 more days

AMEN

end of study week!

Happy birthdae to lao nu ren

Craps!

wrked life is interesting with patrick around!!

money crisi!

stress

rock climbing

key

TERM TEST

butch. gay n les

Farnie days

Friday again

Happi Mother Day

stupid police

second week of school

LALALA

sch starting in few hour time

i did enjoy myself

sick

lalala

sick

eye pain

Annual dinner night...

Under pressure

STRESSS and pressure...

sun tanning

Yeah

piss

Exhausted ....

Valentine day

Closing down of habour front centre...

Congrat

Gulity

happi new year

STRESSS

Stupid... No mood... I was once hurt again....

Wow

[[Yuzhen]]